end of year~

assalamualaikum..
it's the end of 2012..
I learnt a lot..
I cried, when my friendship ends.
I broke down when people throw some bad words on me.
I am disappointed when everything was not according to what I've planned.
I keep silence when my words did not get anyone attention.



but.........



2012 did left me the unforgettable journey and memory..
Friend, comes and go..
the one who stay by your side are the one who deserves to be value.
Love, will come when you least expect it,
and from the person you never expect it to be.
People, are mean..
they teach us survival.
Tears, are not permanent, just like smile, it fades..
but, both are a cycle that complete each other and teach you to be stronger.
Life, will never come as what we plan it to be,
but life will give the best that you deserve to get.
You, sometimes all you need is to be silent for you to know yourself better.
Allah, He will replace your tears by providing you friends, family and accompany..
and Allah, he never left you alone in this world.

I am thankful for all the wonder and happiness that were rewarded to me.

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there are things that is beyond our control.
there are things that only we could put the stop on it.
there are things that we should know our limits.
enough said.

final~

assalamualaikum..
tomorrow the battle for final will begun.
i am so afraid, i am so anxious that i couldn't sleep.
obviously because of the 9 subjects.
and tomorrow 2 subjects.
hoping it will be fine.
and hoping that 4th January will come faster. Can't wait!

p/s: do pray for me and I am sorry for all my mistakes that I've done.
Salam

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nurulhidayah411 =)

common mistakes~

assalamualaikum..

since I love blogging and blog-walking..
I tend to get annoyed with some silly grammatical mistakes..
maybe the writers are not aware..
BUT if they keep repeating the same mistakes it's obviously their mistakes..
english aku pon tak bagus pon..aku pernah fail english kat matrix okay..serious tak tipu..
tapi nasib baik MUET dapat band 4 *which I know, it's common..
for me, memang tak apa nak tulis in english and etc..
aku pon belajar through that process n it built confidence in ourselves..
tapi tak salah jugak kalau kita selalu belajar dari kesilapan..
cari perkataan tu..betul tak grammar kita..
betul tak ejaan tu..
dan tak salah rasanya kalau betul2 kita tak tahu cemano nak tulis omputih ni, tulih je melayu..
daripada melalut cerita and yang paling best kutuk orang tapi satu habuk pon tak paham..
maybe english korang tahap oxford kot sampai aku tak paham..
and aku jenis yang kalau baca struktur ayat dia tunggang terbalik aku akan baca dengan susun dulu perkataan tu....
pleaseeee, check your I/I'm, Your/you're, than/then, congrats/congrates..

p/s: walaupun aku selalu jugak buat mistake..tapi I keep on learning and cari mistakes aku.. ;-)

the girl~

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the girl who always there for others, also needs someone to be there for her..but yet nobody's there for her..

and in the end, she have to be there for herself,

putting a fake smile on the outside and erase the evidence of tears on her face.

what happen when she's alone, it forever remain a secret.

that's the strength of the secretive girl.

siblings~

assalamualaikum..
setelah berhari-hari berhempas pulas menghabiskan segala project paper and assignment serta quiz,
maka hari jumaat adalah hari aku boleh bernafas dengan tenang..
maka, aku project kan adik2 aku buat make over sikit..
aku SUKA gila make up kan orang tapi aku tak suka pakai make up..
and semua cara make up yang baru aku nak try..
sebab aku suka make up kan orang, aku suka beli barang2 make up..
aku ada 48 colour eyeshadow by miss rose, and 3 BB cream, brush aku pon berapa banyak ntah..
favorite make up?? BB cream from etude house, lipstick by silky and lipbalm by vaseline..
and yang harian punya, moisturizer n cream SAFI aloe vera..serious best!
kulit aku jenis kulit kering..so tanpa moisturizer, aku rasa tak selesa n jerawat yg kecik2 tu naik kat dahi..
lepas pakai SAFI alhamdulillah okay...
and satu lagi aku ambil supplement capsule habatussaudah..
ramai tahu habatussaudah ni banyak kelebihan dia..cuma kalau nak makan yg serbuk tu mmg taklah kan..
bau herba dia kuat..
and lepas makan tu memang jerawat tak banyak naik and badan and kulit nampak berseri je..ecewah!

so berbalik kepada kisah memula tu..
aku buat make over adik2 aku guna cara make up yang baru..(smoky one color eyeshadow)
memula aku buat dekat syuhada je..lepas dah buat tu tetiba siti kata dia pon nak.
and end up, dia suruh aku buat jugak..haila..
maka semua dah make up (tapi muka suma tak bedak pon..mata je..hoho)
then apa lagi posing time!

lepas je siap make up

=.=

sanah!

save gaza?

memula ayu~~

the real us!

dua budak mata besar dan seorang budak mata kecik!

soothing~

I know I am not a good daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend..

I just know and it does not make me feel better,

and I know how much I tried my best, I am still not good enough.

I'm sorry..

I am not good in everything..

invisible

assalamualaikum..
I am a loner.* not a song obviously*
but I have friends.
it just that for this year, I learn to keep my mouth shut.
to be more silent and invisible.
I choose to be like that.
I have once being the kind of girl yang peramah, senang bercerita.
and it brings me to a lesson that not anyone can be trusted.
I'm done with that..*trust issue*
but being alone doesn't mean that the person are sombong, pessimist, in-going person.
obviously I am not.
It just that I am confident to be by myself,
and being not in the group of specific friend make my view on people broader.
I saw a lot of new things.
I know a lot of other people.
I learn to be more sensitive in handling people.
this developed my social skills and communication skills.
I believed everyone have a group of friends in each of their university and school.
this is called as bestfriend and etc.
yeah, just like normal people, I have my own closed friends too.
but sometimes, being alone is what you needed.

pernah tengok cerita Lovely Bones or The Invisible.
dua2 cerita ni berlainan tapi ada satu element yang sama2.
dalam Lovely Bones,
perempuan tu adalah mangsa pembunuhan, dan mayat dia tak dijumpai..roh dia kononnya merayap untuk minta tolong and ada masa yang dia nampak kawan-kawan dan keluarga dia..
dalam The Invisible,
lelaki tu kena pukul dan badan dia dicampak dalam lubang air, then roh dia pon sama merayau minta tolong, dan rupanya dia belum mati, cuma koma or something like that..
and the main thing is that, they all see how people around them react and tahu perangai sebenar orang sekeliling dia and macam mana diri diorang yang sebenar..

sometimes, we have to be invisible, dissappear to see the real you.
just take your time to be alone and see your friends and how they treat others.
and judge yourself by that..
if you like it or not..
because, with whom you spend your time the most will create YOU.
I've saw mine, and thanks Allah to show me this.
I don't regret with the changes I made,
mungkin bukan mereka, tapi aku yang tak mampu terima cara mereka.

kembali~

assalamualaikum..
setelah seminggu bercuti, maka berakhirlah suasana santai dan bersenang-lenang ini.
seminggu yang sungguh damai, aman tenteram and aku mampu buat macam-macam yang aku tak mampu sempat nak buat.
selalunya cuti sem aku akan dipenuhi dengan masa bergolek-golek dan menaikkan berat badan *macam naik lah kan?*
tapi semester ini disebabkan dah terbiasa dengan keadaan yang busy dari pagi sampai kemalam,
maka aku berasa tidak biasa dengan keadaan yang senggang ni..*poyo gila*
tapi serius, untuk beberapa hari aku buat macam2 yang aku penat gila, pukul 10 dah mengantuk amat sbb penat.
tapi lepas hari rabu, barulah aku boleh tarik nafas sikit and just give myself a rest..
rehat selagi mampu sebab naik ni aku akan kembali berperang.
harga seorang pelajar farmasi: assignment, report, lab test, project paper, project presentation, project lab, pertandingan,and etc.
baru cerita ni aku dah rasa cam tak cukup nafas..fuhh!
tapi Allah takkan bagi kalau aku tak mampu..insyaAllah.

dalam dunia ni kadang-kadang,
saat yang kita rasa kita sedang jatuh tersungkur,
kita rasa kita sorang-sorang,
kawan pon tak ada.
I've been in the situation for many times.

biasalah bila kawan tinggal kan kita, sebab kita pon kadang-kadang tinggalkan mereka.sedar ataupun tidak sahaja.

apa yang kita boleh buat??
go with the flow..
cakap macam senang, tulis memang mudah.
tapi yang mengalami je yang tahu.
memang aku tak rasa, aku tak tahu.
tapi manusia masih boleh memahami atau kadang-kala manusia itu pernah rasa dan mengalami cuma dia tak pernah hebohkan macam kita ni.
bagi aku, semua perkara ada ubatnya.
hati, pernah terguris, pernah menangis,
jangan pernah paksa diri untuk melakukan sesuatu yang kita tak suka.
jangan mencari sesuatu yang kita sendiri tak pasti.
jodoh dan pertemuan.
tak perlu kejar, dia akan datang sendiri di saat kita tidak sangka,
tapi yang pasti adalah saat yang terbaik dan saat kita bersedia.
usaha? usaha itu bukan dengan perbuatan yang terdesak
doa itu juga suatu usaha bukan?
rakan dan teman yang terbaik datang dari Allah,
apabila Dia menarik kita jauh dari mereka,
saat itu Allah nak lindung diri kita dari sesuatu yang kita sendiri tidak dapat bayangkan.
from this I learnt, Allah knows the best, for something that I couldn't see.
syukur dengan siapa yang Allah bawa dalam kehidupan aku sekarang.
syukur dengan mereka yang setia denganku bertahun-tahun lamanya tanpa jemu.

p/s: sedih baca berita di Gaza..andai kita ditempat mereka, hidup dalam keadaan yang risau dengan keselamatan orang yang kita sayang, sahabat dan keluarga..syurga tempat mereka..doa je yang mampu hulur.. :'(

DIY ANDROID CASING~

assalamualaikum..
I would want to share the reason why I've been to tired that make me forget to wish his birthday.. *jahat gila blame it on this..
but I am super excited about this that make me tired up..huhu
and sorry inche saudara sempurna..

handmade jeans android cover

inilah yang buat aku super busy and super penat..

aku cari android 9 inch casing merata..tapi tak jumpa..

so I end up buat sendiri daripada cardboard and jeans lama adik aku..

aku search online for the Do It Yourself..

and aku pon memulakan operasi..

and alhamdulillah nenek ada kat rumah untuk tolong aku buat especially bab nak potong kain and nak jahit.

aku?? memang tak reti menjahit cuma kalau takat seluar koyak and jahit kaki tu ok lah..tapi nenek, juara pertandingan menjahit MAHA. untunglah aku..hihi..

and the best part..siapa ada nenek cool yang tolong cucu dia buat android casing?

handphone pon nenek tak tahu guna..android apatah lagi..hihi
so first day dapat link untuk buat android ni, aku dah excited gila..
pagi tu penat kemas rumah pon dilupakan and aku terus ambil cardboard yang memang baru beli extra untuk project pharmacognosy aku and terus buat..
tapi kain tak jumpa lagi..ingat nak pegi Jakel tapi pastu teringat, kitorang banyak baju lama yang nak bagi orang..so, ambil satu..
tapi aku basuh dulu malam tu and esoknya baru jahit..
and the result is not bad!! love it! tak sangka aku berbakat buat benda ni..kah3..*poyo

FYI: POYO stands for Proud of Your Own. Doesn't know that it is actually comes from an english word. It sounds so malay..haha

nak try buat android cover sendiri?? try this link: michelleesque: DIY: Tablet Cover

wordless wednesday~

when you realize that the things in your wardrobe and bag is all pink!

nikmat~

assalamualaikum..

been a while after all those busy moment..

malam ni aku baru rasa lega sikit..kenapa sikit je?

sebab aku dah siapkan kerja yang nak hantar esok..3 reports and 2 assignments.HANDWRITTEN..

hoyeah, actually ada choice blh type or tulis..but printer buat hal haritu so I sort of stop trusting the printer..* blh gitu??*

then next week cuti..so tade benda nak pass up, tapi naik tu hambek kau! report, assigments, project segala bagai coklat jatuh ke ladang gandum!

so for now aku nak golek2 kejap bersama series2 yang aku tertinggal..

aku follow sekarang jane by design, how i met you mother season 8, and once upon a time season 2..

semua aku tengok online..betapa stress nya aku bila season baru sume keluar time aku midsem haritu..ngeee~

so next hobby..makan!

serious, makanan sangatlah seronok..

first thing aku buat lepas habis exam adalah buat lasagna!

tapi sebab dah lama aku tak buat, aku terbuat light..meaning that tak terlalu heavy or mengenyangkan. thus, dua2 ni habis dengan lajunya!

next, my birthday..

aku memang sorok birth date aku dekat fb..

why? sbb I dont really feel appreciated when someone wish me because FB said so?? 

time nilah kita nampak siapa yang ingat birthday kita..

THAT feelings..AWESOME.

furthermore,yang penting tu orang yang tertentu je wish kita kan??

for me, everyone I love wishes me, that's make me a super happy girl!

AND, gfs...they never missed to make suprises for me..

and same as last year, my birthday, twice the celebration..

meaning that: celebrate early, celebrate in 2 consequence day! 

first day tu, bawak yin pergi shopping..tetiba nani datang bawak dessert..wee~

then esok tu planned..kitorang pegi MAKAN lagi..

this time, NotBadLaaGrill! sedap gila.punyalah semangat tempuh jem dihari jumaat semata-mata nak makan burger bakar..

btw everyone yang wish, I love you guys..

without them, I wont be this happy! cc: family, gfs, classmates, friends who remember, him!

serious sedap! wajib cari!

 

beg tu hadiah dari yin..dessert tu dari nani..love you dearie..

despite aku yang makan banyak tu..ramai yang tegur, 

kenapa aku makin kurus..??

the truth is that aku tak buat apa2..

cuma kalau aku banyak berfikir, aku akan jadi kurang makan..

and aku sangat2 jaga makan kalau aku tengah study week and exam week.

serious time study adalah waktu yang sangat lapar untuk aku..

and believe me, stress lead me to eat a lot..

tapi, aku jenis manusia yang cepat sangat mengantuk kalau makan..

so aku selalu avoid makan berat and dinner..

and this is one of the factor why aku makin kurus kot *kurus lah sangat..~

tapi tengok gambar pon I have to admit that I dont look well..

dengan muka pucat and obvious dark circle..

but I cant do anything with it since this is the path I've chose..

bersusah-susah dahulu, bersenang-senang kemudian..huhu

harapnya dah senang badan aku tak naik..kih3 xP

and another obvious fact is that aku SANGAT conscious dengan berat badan aku..

why?

it just a paranoid that I have once before..

aku maybe tak gemuk yang obese or overweight.

tapi aku pernah chubby..

aku pernah diet time form 5 and that keeps me on diet till now..

tapi my diet is not that extreme..

I tend to take more salad and etc compared to carbs..

and I love myself..

and I am confident with myself..

so just let me keep it this way..

till then..salam..~

 

busy!

super busy.
tak sabar weekend ni..
tak sabar weekend depan.
tak sabar cuti seminggu.

kbye!

notes today, from pharmacology of cancer and other body system: high histamine in the body will cause us to forget things..and, forgetting is a blessing from god..it keep us moved on in life- dr hamed~

memory lane and some sort of stress reliever!~

assalamulaikum..
due to some reasons of hormonal imbalance and also stress due to exam..
i kinda made something out of mind..
seriously.this semester is no joke!
 24 credit hours just make me forget my life, and other thing else..
bukak twitter and fb pon sekadar tengok group for any news or perkembangan.
Owh, and twitter is just to catch up with my gfs life..*macam stalker je bunyi but i dont want to miss anything about them.*
and, I have removed almost half of my follower..
I am so sorry, it's not that I am ending up friendship with them,
not that I hate them..instead I love them but I think it's better to be like this.
I don't want them to read my rambling, sometimes words hurt people we care..
so it is better to be like this.
no, no I don't talk anything badly about others especially friend, dont worry dear..
so, what did I did that is so out of normal?
one day, after hours and hours of reading, memorizing and understanding, I took few minutes to just lay in my bed but I couldn't rest..
then I sat up and suddenly my eyes fixed at one thing..

this album particularly..

as I had just started to open it, suddenly..

umi and Sanah masuk bilik and they joined me..*what a bonding time..huhu

and one name come to me as they asked which make me feel mixed up.

I dont know how to describe it.

I dont know if I am sad, if I am angry, if I miss that person..

it all a mixed up, that's the best way to describe it.

maybe I had strong enough to face it.

strong enough to walk through this memory lane and accept the reality..

been a year, all that is not easy but not possible.

I lied if I did not miss a single memories in this album. I miss them all..

my practicum-mate: i never had this kind of classmates again.

my unique bestfriend; qila and ain

for them who bring me joy and tears.

i miss them..

........................................................

next thing that I've done!

memula, kita kan pergi makan dengan umi dekat kenny rogers..

pastu kan kita nampak kasut ni..

kita pegi tengok kedai tu..sekali kita ternampak kasut lain..

bila pakai it looks like a boots..nice!

so kita beli sebab kita tak ada lagi kasut yang casual yang boleh bawak jalan2 and kelas for formal..

then..umi bawak kita pergi eighty one since dia ada 50% less for all item accept signature dia..

BUT I want the peplum WHICH is mahal jugaklah..

so kita merantau ke cala qisha..

and and kita TERBELI peplum dia..TER eh bukan sengaja..

hik3..*tamatlah aku gedik2 separuh hari membazir tanpa study..kbye.

TERBELI okay..huhu

~~

mood: hyper, pening kepala, overload of thinking..
now doing: report, assignments and reading for quizzes..

seriously, life ain't gonna be better..
it's going on tougher..
pharmacy is really tough, mentally and physically..
exhausted much..class from 8-6 then back home preparing for tomorrow with tons of assignment..
been through the worst..but I don't remember how we survive during our 2nd semester..hoho
BUT I know I will! maybe this is worst than 2nd semester..because we have a lot of project and lab..
next semester dah start buat proposal..
next year buat clinical and cases dekat hospital..then graduate!
ya Allah, sekejapnya 4 tahun...
and 4 years full with stories..

how  I remember graduationg from matrix.
it was like yesterday..TETTT..it have been 2 years have pass through..
I wish I have taken a lot of picture back then..
and I wish I have saved it in the CD..
unfortunately, I have nothing except for my practicum picture..
everything else have gone..
I think, there are some good things behind everything that happen..
I lost the picture but yet it make me stronger..
I've been through a phase of mending my own heart.
memories will just make it harder to forget..
but lucky me to cuci gambar and put it in an album..
it just for now, I don't want to open it..it still fresh in my memory.
all the wound, the pain, the love, friendship..
and how I loss it.
 for whatever reason I have to not to open the album..
those album is my greatest memories..
my favourite..
thinking of it will only make me cry..
but everyone moved on..
cherish the memories and live the present.

p/s: ditulis dalam keadaan yang masih pening kepala..maaf kalau ada yang ditulis secara tidak sedar..~

cantik~

assalamualaikum..
cantik tu subjektif..bukan mat lutfi je kata..
ramai lagi orang yang kata..
ada orang kata kurus macam victoria beckam tu lawa.
ada orang kata gemuk tu lawa.
ada orang kata pakai make up tu lawa.
ada orang kata bare face tu lawa.
ada orang kata yg pakai cermin mata tu handsome.
ada orang kata yang pakai baju kemeja tu gay-ish look.
macam-macam lah orang kata..

tapi aku dan orang lain ada jugak kata....cantik tu untuk siapa?
dulu, badan berisi, gemuk..
muka berjerawat, jeragat, gelap..
waktu tu, beria-ia kata nak ubah penampilan..
nak lagi cantik..jaga badan, jaga makan..
dan waktu tu jugak, semua gambar dekat facebook di hide kan..
tak pon ambil gambar pon tak nampak muka,
baju besar-besar, labuh tutup semua..
bersederhana sebab kita nak tutup kekurangan kita..

TAPI...lepas dah cantik dan kurus lepas guna produk A, produk B..
tup2 tukar profile picture..
gambar yang nampak badan kita dah kurus, muka dah nampak tirus,
privasi gambar pon dibuka maka ramailah yang komen..
cantiknya awak sekarang..kurusnya awak...
lepas tu setiap bulan tukar gambar baru..
kali ini tiada lagi kekurangan yang nak kita tutup..
lupa kah kita untuk bersederhana?

kadang-kadang bila kita hodoh, buruk, gemuk, berisi..
masa itu kita sedar diri kita..
kita jaga adab, jaga batas..dan yang penting JAGA DIRI KITA..
tapi..bila dah cantik kita sibuk jaga makan, jaga perhiasan diri sampai kita tak terjaga perkara yang kita ada dulu..
sedangkan ia adalah yang paling penting untuk kita.
bukan paras rupa yang tentukan siapa kita.,.
akhlak kita yang utama..
bila kita ada kekurangan, kita selalu beringat..selalu bersederhana..
bila kita ada kelebihan, kita lupa itu adalah ujian Allah..masa tu kita perlu lebih beringat..
lebih bersederhana..~
cantik itu untuk siapa?
Lillahitaa'la.

memujuk~

assalamualaikum..

al-insyirah.

surah Al-Insyirah.

surah memujuk, surah penenang diri.

my favourite surah.

dulu waktu zaman sekolah agama, memang hafaz sebab nak lulus hafazan..

namun ilmu tanpa amal tak berguna..lama-lama lupa.

but then bila dah masuk sekolah menengah,

abah made me hafaz this surah again together with ad-dhuha *real forcing me to!

my "vocab" for surah at that time is sooooo few.

dalam solat dok ulang al-ikhlas, an-nas *sedih ;-(

so afterwards, surah ni sentiasa berada di fikiran.

during my SPM trial,

my teacher said to us, if you are nervous in the examination hall,

remember to recite this surah.

I never knew until then that the surah dapat tenangkan hati..

because I never really care about the meaning.

until today,

I recite it in every of my prayer.

At the time that I found difficulties,

I recite this surah.

At the time that I cried,

I recite this surah.

At the time that I stumbled to the ground with no one to held me up,

I recite this surah.

because i believed..."Bahawa sesunnguhnya tiap-tiap kesusahan 

disertai kemudahan"

the funny part that I could tell you is that,

waktu aku buat experiment dengan tikus.

which I have to feed the mice with a drug (metformin and glucose) and then we have to take the blood sample by making a small cut at the tail of the mice,

I recite this surah to the mice.

I felt really sorry to the mice.

each group have to take two mice, for the control and the test.

our mice seems to have this connection that we could describe by the way they take care of each other.

they protect each other from being touch by us and even lick each other wound.

But the mice remain really calm and good.

they even slept at the time interval before we check the blood again.

It so sad and emotionally touch.

this is why I hate experiment with animal!:'(

unfortunate, it is for the sake of knowledge.

the cutie good and well-behaved mice..:')

this surah, really make me feel calm,

and make me stronger and stronger.

make me feel....Terpujuk..

life ain't easy.

people talk, people hate.

for what I could be,

I could be me.

The best of me.

InsyaAllah.

timeline~

assalamualaikum..
i really hate fb auto public on timeline!
kita nak privacy..but fb always made it public..
dahlah dengan the timeline thing make everything easy for people to stalk others.
stalk the past, the presence.
media untuk pecah belahkan manusia lagi..
I really hate it and that's why I moved on to twitter.
lagipun fb hanya akan buat aku ingat satu kenangan.
yang aku taknak bukak balik dah.
semuanya dah tersimpan.
walau macam mana gembiranya aku tengok yg lain masih bukak kisah lama.
borak dan komen,
aku taknak ganggu, taknak buat orang lain sedih.
biar aku hilang tiada yang cari.


tak perlu tuang minyak ke api.
aku tahu batas aku.

P/S: jom pegi shopping esok area radiusite, sugarscarf, cala qisha and etc !

school activity!

assalamualaikum..
fuh fuh..kenkonon cam busy sangat jelah aku ni..
tapi seriously agak busy jugaklah..
dengan assignment yang makin menimbun, quiz yang bagai coklat jatuh ke ladang gandum, dgn school activity lagi..
actually aku tak ada lah terlibat sangat..
memula memang aku termasuk dalam AJK orientation junior..
as always, my forever job is to be the club photgrapher *mcm pandai sangat ambil gambar kan? =.=
punyalah rajin aku datang tiap kali meeting padahal kalau aku tak ada pon tape since ambil gambar je pon..
but on the day itself, I have to give up my job..
after passed my camera to my classmates, I've rushed to the hospital due to abah rasa tak sihat.
responsibility as a daughter comes first!
abah warded for one day for all the test and etc and the next evening dah discharged.
Alhamdulillah tak ada apa-apa.but the picture are with me since I'm the AJK.
and sorry to my poor mentee yang tak dapat jumpa their mentor..
but I've manged to contact my mentee and get to know them on the next day.
3 lelaki and 2 perempuan..
my junior is sooo lucky to have us as a senior.
waktu kami dulu, we dont have anyone to look for..

next even baru je berlangsung tadi..

poolside potluck with japanese student?

did I mention that we have exchanged student from Japan? ye we do have!

and insyaAllah next year kalau ada rezeki and peluang mungkin aku pon dapat exchange ke Jepun for industrial/ community attachment..hoho

and and we also have student from Indonesia!

and yup we also could done our attachment there..

so potlcuk ni best gila since semua makanan lecturer bawak AND the food..HEAVENLY!

semua bawak makanan dari negara masing2..*sbb lecturer mostly from middle east

mandi chicken rice, shawarma (sedap gila!), damdam, capati with mutton and etc..

memotong lemang since aku sorang je melayu kat situ. =.=

lecturer with their dishes

shawarma by dr rasha! sedap!

hamek ko makanan!

the AJK's and hujung tu lecturer favourite budak perempuan.

seronok associate professor dari Jepun tu tengok dean aku ambil makanan

paling rendah, paling comot aku lah tu..=.=

Fading Flowers

you get that walk walk walk

got that talk talk talk

got that swagger er er

such a glamor or or

you're like a real life doll

with your hair that falls

like niagara a a

but that don't matter er er

cause that don't change the fact

that your heart is black

you can't tear me down

beat me to the ground

try to block my sunshine

my blue skies with your clouds

and who do you think you are

yeah that won't get you far

you may think you're pretty

but you'll see that beauty is a fading flower

fading flow-ow-ow-ower

fading flow-ow-ow-ower

you'll only play play play

if you get your way always

in the center er er

of attentio-o-on

all the lying and the cheating

the mistreating

how you even sleep at nigh-igh-ight

blows my mi i i ind

i wonder when you'll see

that you don't bother me..

i spent all my youth

trying to be you

thought you were special

that you were beautiful

but the more of you I see

the more I'm glad I'm me

(fading flower by yuna)

this new song from yuna had just stucked in my head..

i'm glad rather than having gangnam song stuck in the head..erghh..

she got attitude, confidence and she have succeed..

despite her dressing (her turban and legging), she is still awesome!

p/s: i heard that this song is dedicated for those people who had once bullied her..i am not sure bout it..but the lyrics do describe kan?

raya with my love

assalamualaikum..
gempak sangat je tajuk kan??
tapayah nak negative sangatlah bila baca entry dah fitnah aku gedik bagai..
okie, ni entry nak cerita berjalan-jalan dengan girlfriend je okie..
so, kalau dah beraya dengan girlfriend pergi rumah girlfriend jelah..
for all this years, kami beraya dekat shah alam jelah..
kami seriously rapat sangat2 sampai family pon rapat.
dah anggap macam ibu bapa sendiri dah lagi2 bila tahu ada jodoh berkait antara parents kitorang..
apa special raya tahun ni.
ada dua perkara yang special, we met our old gang tapi tak full lah..
originally, our gang have 9 gfs.nani teha yin dayah linda lin didi faten and miza.
yang ada haritu adalah the four of us + didi miza and faten
miza, faten and nani adalah cousins..cuma bila kami hangout kami selalu keluar sama2..maka mereka adalah asset berharga untuk buat surprise untuk nani. SHHHHH!
agak best lah..and kami jumpa jugak dgn our schoolmate, adilah ali..
kami dah lama gila tak jumpa dgn any of our schoolmate kecuali yang dekat MSU (for me)

the second difference for this year raya is that kami dapat beraya dalam suasana kampung..
duuhh, Shah Alam is obviously bandar..
walau macam mana seksyen 2 and 3 ni a kampung since ramai warga emas di kawasan ni, ia tetap takkan dapat suasana kekampungan tu..
tapi sejak fatehah berpindah ke bukit badak, seksyen 36 Shah Alam *wujud okay seksyen tu, kami dapat gak jumpa sungai, titi, kebun pisang, reban ayam,rumah kampung.. .(teruja sekejap)
bukanlah aku tak ada kampung yang bersuasana kampung..
ada! tapi different bila kita raya dengan kawan sekolah, bestfriend kat kampung..hoho
so, apa-apa pon makan memang best lah kan walaupon western..kenyang sampai malam!
and, aku bab makan waktu raya tak control..lagilah bila orang dah kata aku makin kurus..=.=

my girlfriends

that is the shawl that I sew the lace myself and the gfs had ordered it walaupun tempahan tak dibuka.

 the yellow tudung is Miza..currently studying at UiTM Melaka tak silap saya..tu jarang jumpa..:'(

that gorgeous girl is didi! the model-tall didi..

ni di rumah teha dengan akmal a.k.a debab a.k.a adik nani

abes segala tunggul kayu kami posing.

bandar masuk kampung.

akmal's photograph.

once in a while :-)

love this photo!

p/s: yang jauh dalam ingatan cukuplah..jauh tak semestinya tak rapat, jauh tak semestinya tak sayang.. Ada kebaikan dalam jarak ini..insyaAllah.

remember!

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