Monday, November 25, 2013

moving on when you are not.

As I reach 22 years old, I realize things are getting tougher in life.
Discussing about the future with your friends, family and love one.
It feel like a grown up when I am not.
Asked Umi if I act like I am 22..
She will obviously said no, seldom at home, umi will scold me on how messy my room are, how messy my study room are, how messy my kitchen are.
Always when I cook, my family will say that it is tasteless, kurang garam, kurang gula and etc.
And I will answer all the question like a child.."ala tapelah..cantik dah tu..sedaplah ni..kemas dah ni"
but despite all that, what I went through, what my friend went through is not something that I can act childishly.
Sometimes I am proud of myself to handle my ownselves in a quite a good way.
Atleast, I can actually make my own decision on what is good or bad, although no one is perfect and I, too, make mistakes.
I choose what I need to keep and what I need to move on.
Thinking about the fact on the future, it is a bit..hmm..I cant describe it.
What I know is I will graduate in another 7-8 months, then I will work at hospitals, or retail pharmacy or industrial pharmacy(??)
marriage? InsyaAllah but the chance maybe not within this 2-3 years since I dont think I have much time during Provisional Registered Pharmacist (PRP) or what other called it as houseman. (Clinical yg 1 case a week pon dah tak bernafas, inikan 20cases/week waktu PRP nanti)

Sometimes there are time when we all did the wrong decision at the wrong time.
and by the time had passed, we all regret what we have decided.
We regret that why on earth we did something so desperate, so rushed, so fast.
Sometimes we asked ourselves..'why can't we wait until we are ready to make the decision, why can't we keep calm and let time heal everything. And with time, we can make the right decision with a clearer vision of the future'
We learn from the bad decision, yes we did.
but sometimes the bad decision will not make things correct again.
it will change everything and nothing can be undo.


it such a very loooooongggg time since I last updated this blog.
and such a long time to update my current situation or self or whatever.
There are lots of things that I miss.
I miss pampering myself, miss doing all my hobbies, I miss everyone, and even miss myself.
and I even miss writing on this blog.
this blog was once my addiction, just like my addiction on make up, shawl, square shawls, blouse, good health, getting on diet and the list goes on.
unfortunately I dont have enough time to do everything.
I was busy with clinical attachment, research project, assignments, presentation and etc.
It's already the end of November, and this November is never the same November I ever had.
So much things happened in November, so much laughter and cries.
Clinical attachment is very interesting and tiring for me.
I never studies as much as during the attachment.
Woke up at 6am, go out at 7am,
reach Hospital by 0735am, stayed there till 6pm since I have to wait for Umi to fetch me from her workplace,
reach home around 7pm,
clean, rest, eat until 830pm and start studying my case until I got all the answer for the precetor's question and understand the case, study the Clinical Practice Guidelines, all the drug interaction, all and everything on the drugs and ofcourse for my dearest lecturers, my complete report on my case.
I dont even have time for other things.
and maybe that's why the pharmacy department have so many beautiful single ladies. Like seriously.
It takes a person that could understand us completely.
Ok, done with attachment, I supposed to have poster presentation last week on thursday, but they postponed it.
I finished my poster, week before since I wanna go for a holiday at Perak. *wink*
Those trip is just so wonderful but I am too lazy to write it down..maybe I'll just put some picture in here.

p/s: the truth is, I put on weight after raya and still did not managed to get back my weight. So, I have to say that I am on diet. Thanks that I am on workout during puasa and raya, it did not really affect my physical appearance so much.

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