doa for mesir~

assalamualaikum..
mesir..everyone should know by now the situation in mesir..
the penunjuk perasaan, the killing and the bomb-ing of prison..
banyak cerita about the situation in mesir..
pasal ada yg kata student malaysia kene rape..
and etc..
i am worried because the person that I care are there..
my friends who's taking medic..

my brother (cousin), abg aqi..
nasib baik he's now in manchester sbb ada presentation..so his situation is quite relieving..tp through him we know a lot bout mesir..he said actually agak teruk lah..
tak pelah janji dia dah selamat..

hana hassan..
my friend yg baru je pegi sana after raya..study kat mansoura same as abg aqi..our head prefect..baru few days before the sekatan..she contacted me through fb..woah..risau dengan dia..the one yg slalu mmbangkitkan semangat aku and give a great conversation with me..a great debaters also..miss her a lot!!

arif ahmad..
bestfriend in matrix..blaja kat tanta..which is one of the place yg dikatakan agak kritikal..hoping Allah be with you and secure you..kesian ko sambut birthday at the situation..kitorang kat sini sentiasa doa kan ko..hoping to hear from you soon..Amin..

to other student yang dekat sana..
doa kami sentiasa ada untuk korang..selamatkanlah mereka yang sedang berjihad dalam belajar..AMIN..~

love story..decoded

sekarang ni ramai sangat yang nak aku jawab persoalan cinta ni..
mentang-mentanglah umur aku dah masuk 20..
ok here..the first entry that that I ever write on love..

'hidayah, ko pernah couple?'

soalan ni dah biasa sangat di tanya kat aku terutama pada member2 yang baru nak kenal hati budi..and there's only one answer for that..which is 'xpernah..'
this is the truth and there's no other truth than this..

kenapa?

great question..jawapan mudah is..'entah..malas nak fikir'
jawapan susah..yang sebenarnya..
i'm not ready for all this thing and I have my point of view on love relationship..
aku tak nak bercinta sebab it is unpredictable..
aku lebih selesa berkawan..
korang boleh agak apa akan jadi in future?
will that person then be your husband?
for me, this kind of relationship bukan untuk trial and error..
bukan kalau tak suka boleh campak masuk tong sampah..
its not..
(sangat susah aku nak terangkan sbnrnya kat sini..)

maybe antara korang yang pernah dengar pasal couple tu haram..
aku tak boleh nak huraikan about this sebab aku masih belum arif lg pasal ni..
ramai yang buat bercinta ni is a must..
konon macam nak cari calon lah..
but why cant they just be a friend??
dah confirm korang rasa dialah yang paling sesuai baru korg terus je pinang anak dara orang tu...kan senang..~
ada satu blog yang aku baca..
dia ada ckp..dia xkish kalau awek dia jumpe someone yang lebih baik dari dia and decide untuk pilih orang tu dari diri dia..
for me..apa yang dia fikir tu betul..sbb bnda tu for our future..so let them decide..

reminder for anda dan diri sendiri: the words love tu kalau boleh aku nak khaskan untuk someone yg really deserve to get it..cakaplah aku ni tak de perasaan ke, hati batu ke..this is me..those words are really special which meant for a special person..<3

reach for the sky..~

secondhand serenade..~
i want to tell about a friend..
he continue his study earlier than all of us..
he went to a private university and take a science course..
while we wait for upu and matriculation..
he's supposed to fly this year..
he's doing great in his study..
after few months of lost contact..a few days back, i contacted him again..
he said he dropped out those subject..
he doesnt want to continue..
i asked, Why??dont you feel it's a waste..?after 2 years of learning..
he said, why must he continue things that he doesnt like..
it will waste his life..better for him to stop before regretting..~
and I was thinking..that's the BEST decision..!

and then I look up at myself..
my friends..
ramai kawan2 aku yg regret with the course yang diorg tak pernah bayang pon untuk amek..
ramai yg flunk their pointer..
and this lead to a disappointment and losing their motivation..
and then then lead to a pengangguran and decrease in productivity waktu diorang keje nnti..

Alhamdulillah Ive chose my pathway..and hoping it is the best..

'Watch you waste away
You were born to shine but left behind'

ramai yang ada passion in some subject tp xnak kejar other opportunity..
aku tak boleh nak cakap lebih2..
maybe orang akan cakap aku ada duit, so tak kisahlah nak pilih swasta..
but aku pon peminjam MARA yang berhutang lebih daripada siswa/siswi IPTA..
tapi atleast insyaAllah aku boleh berjaya dengan cara tu and I wont regret in my afterward life..

then, if you have chosen your pathway..
then stop yourself from whining..
why dont you just do your very best!
you have chose that..dont bother of what other people say..
stop all the NO in your thought..~

'How could you believe that your not strong
You don't believe in yourself..'

and at the time you loose yourself..
you need help and someone to be with you..
just remember Allah is there for you..
and so do I..
dont forget about it dear..~


'So reach for the sky,
I would pick you up if I could
Open your eyes,
I would pick you up if I could'

idea gila n spontaneous..~

sangat haru bila umi and abah berkemas rumah..
haru kenapa??sbb idea yg diorg bagi selalu mengharukan aku..
ada ke sdg sibuk umi bising suh kemas bilik study tu..abah blh kata..
'apa kata kita pindah bilik study tu then bilik kita skarang jadi bilik study..'
pergh!!idea tu mmg bernas sbb bilik umi and abah besar gle n best lah kalau dpt study kat ctu..(lgpon aku asyik kene halau je dari bilik study sbb xde meja setelah meja lama time skolah dah di rampas oleh adik aku setelah aku masuk matrix)

maka dengan itu, umi berkuasa veto berkata..'ok gak tu..ok change!!no regret!'
ceh..ptg tu sume dah duduk terdiam melihat rumah dah macam kene langgar garuda..
maka keluarlah perkataan..'sapa yg bagi idea gila ni..!'..wakaka..
tulah jadinya ble wat unplanned..lawak kot.. AND sungguh penat gila..~~
bayangkan lah.. 2 almari besar(buku jgn cte lah kan), 1 katil, 3 meja..pergh..~~
skang sume dah tergolek..~hahaha

awan nano

Lihat ke arah sana
Serakan warna dan berarakan...awan
Pabila terik-panas
Segera hadirnya memayungi.. diri

Pabila kau dahaga
Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan... kasehnya
Pabila kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri
Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi ...
dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai... jejarimu

Kasehnya
Kaseh tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua

Awan kekaseh sebenarmu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu... ooooo-ooo

Lihat diriku ini
Yang sesekali pernah kau bagaikan... awan
Sehingga tak mungkin terlupa
berikan belas sedari... dulu

Sehingga tak mungkin termampu saksi
Setitispun air matamu...kasehku
Sehingga kau katakan
Akulah awan itu yang kau rindu

Akulah awanmu yang sedia
Melindungi dirimu tika panas mencuba menggores pipi..
Dan bibirmu

Akulah awanmu yang sering kau rindu
dan tak terduga hadirmu walau tak tercapai... jejarimu

Kasehku
Kaseh tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua

Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu... oooo-oooo

Begitulah awan nano
Setia melindungi diri tika panas mencuba menggores pipi ...
Dan bibirmu

Begitulah awan nano
Sering saja tak terduga hadir
Dan tak akan tercapai.. jejarimu

Kasehku
Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua

Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

p/s: friendship last forever~

end of first semester..

im so glad that exam is over..alhamdulillah..
hope result ok lah walaupon answer mcm apa ntah..
seriously i dont agree with the system..
for final exam, we only prepare for 4 days and study for ourselves..
what i mean here, the lecturer xajar apa2 pon..
ok..some akan ckap,,'biasalah kat U..mmg cmtu lah system dia..'
i dont blame IF the lecturer ajar sikit ciput then suruh kitorg buat assignment or ape..
but here..I said 0..xde langsung..NIL..
its all depend on US..xphm pon lntk ko lah..
and the result is all the student xde semangat langsung nak study..~
hoping next semester wont be this difficult eventhough we have 7 subjects..
ngee..~
what ever it is..i want to just enjoy this short break..~

what am I?

sometimes, when friends are in pain, hurtful and they cry..
i asked myself, what am i doing? i felt useless to just let them cry..
if I am in no help for you, cant I just be your crying shoulder?
aku xtahu kenapa..tapi I have an instinct that actually I am the reason you cry..
and...I have certain reason on saying this..but it maybe just a thought..
you are not mad with me but you are in a big dilemma..you cant say it to me because it is related to me..
i know you..you keep denying your feelings..but I know Im right..
just say it my besties..
i'll try to do my best..please tell me the truth so that you'll be happy..
and..to YOU..its your time to be happy.. You cant keep crying for what life have given to you..You have to choose to be happy..and like what I've said before..I wont turn my back from you..Im here always..~

hate short semester..

yeah..this is all because of the changes in the programme structure.
i really hate it..
i'm takin anatomy and physiology from late november(23th to be exact)until our final in 20th january..
really short eh?
by the time i'm taking my final, the fellow students(other courses) are just finished their mid sem..
grrr..like what mis yasohdha said ' i usually cover 1 topic for two weeks..but in your case its just superb impossible..'
ngee..now, i have loads of assignment(last week got 6 assignments)..presentation..study to cover..final without study week...ngee..

ottoke?hoping i could do my best and do well..!chayok..!