End of Third Year

Assalamualaikum,
officially finished my third year last Thursday, which is my last day at one of the Community Pharmacy at Section 7, Shah Alam.
This attachment was the most memorable attachment,
it just feel so close to my heart that I can't believe those 3 weeks have ended.
I've never been happy after a period of time.
pernah tak rasa macam, kalau boleh kita nak pegi someplace yang no one know us,
no one know about our past, and no one will judge us?
that is exactly what I want and what I get during the attachment.
Aku tak kenal sorang pon dari diorang, and diorang pon tak kenal aku.
Although aku buat attachment dengan one of my friend, tapi sebabkan shift kami sentiasa berbeza, aku jumpa dia sekejap je..
Pengalaman kalini sangat berbeza dari pengalaman attachment dekat hospital.
aku pernah terfikir that one day, aku maybe akan end up dekat community or retail pharmacy tapi maybe after a while dekat hospital which actually freak me out.
and after this attachment, aku memang dah bulat hati that I am definitely will end up dekat community pharmacy one day.
hospital bagi aku adalah tempat untuk strengthen my knowledge and as a preparation to stand by myself as a good pharmacist.

why?
sebab interaction with patient lagi besar and lagi best..
and what surprise me is that, our community bukan lagi yg macam lecturer kata tataw apa2 pasal ubat..
actually they knew a lot!
kalau tak, takkanlah Prostinor 2 adalah one of the hot selling item.
*prostinor adalah after morning pill, so bila drama sume siarkan pasal kena rogol, then pregnant then terpaksa kawen dengan perogol tu..aku akan sentiasa cakap that is ridiculus, bulls***.
and takkanlah ramai yg datang2 mintak Dalacin T, Clindamycin, doxymycin and all other antibiotic and hormone to treat acne?
sepanjang aku belajar pon ada jugak ubat yg aku xpernah dengar utk rawat certain things yg aku end up tahu dari patient.hoho

ramadhan,
since aku start attachment 8 haribulan and kita berpuasa 10 hb, so aku pon menyambut Ramadhan dengan bekerja.
Alhamdulillah, selama aku berbuka dekat kedai, memang terasa best sangat.
dan maybe sebab kan tu, kami lebih cepat rapat dengan staff kat situ.
Sampai minggu last aku kat situ, aku berbuka setiap hari dengan diorang eventhough aku dah habis shift.
Dekat situ, aku memang rapat dengan Kak Nabilah, Kak Azirah, Jazlan and Rizal.
diorang staff yg paling cool n paling best lah..

Kak Nabilah pharmacist kitorg, dia baru masuk beberapa hari lepas kami masuk,
dia dari hospital, so dia banyak share apa yg dia tahu dengan aku, and dia ada butik online sendiri which is The Scarves..Kak Nabilah ni sempoi je, bawak VW Polo.. dapatlah merasa naik kereta dia untuk beli makanan berbuka haritu..hihikkss.. Good Luck Kak Bel belajar selok belok bisnes and saya akan support shawl baru akak..kih3

Kak Azirah, yang first sekali aku jumpa waktu briefing sebelum start bekerja..
waktu first time tu dia dah ajar aku ubat macam2, selok belok kerja kat situ n macam2 lah..
then Kak Azirah ni memang jenis yg straight forward, kalau xnak tu xnaklah..kalau ok tu oklah..
dia memang best! senang bercakap and berkawan dengan dia..memang ngam lah..dah rindu kak Azira..rindu nak makeup kan and pakaikan kak Zira shawl..wuwu

Jazlan pun yg first jumpa sama dengan kak Azirah.. Dia ni sebijik cam kawan kat MSU..so kekadang terlepas cakap cam tengah cakap dengan kawan tu..then dia pandai make up..semua tips kecantikan dah korek dari dia..lagipon kulit dia memang cantiknya kalah aku.. Dia ni macam2 perangai..buat time yg ceria memang ceria habis, ckp apa pon dia okay je..

Rizal pulak jenis yang diam.. Atleast seimbanglah jugak kedai tu..ada yang diam, ada yg bising2 sket..huhu.. Dia ni jenis yang memang baik dengan perempuan yang bagi aku perempuan senang salah fahamlah tahap kebaikan dia..memula kenal, aku dengar eisya panggil dia abang..tapi dia panggil aku akak..so aku rasa xpuas hati sbb aku rasa aku xlah lebih tua dari dia..and memang tepatlah aku dengan dia sebaya. Ni kalau ada sesiapa yang berkenan nak buat calon bolehlah komen kat bawah ni..hoho..

eisya and Ros, aku xlah rapat sangat ngan diorg..
pernah buka dengan diorang pon dua kali je..
diorang banyak sama shift dengan member aku yg lagi sorang..diorang ni pon aku kenal dua minggu je before diorang berhenti.. tapi diorang memang pandai bab ubat..Ros mmg assistant pharmacist..tapi eisya dia tgh study account tp sbb dah lama wat part time ubat, dah tahu ubat apa utk apa..kkdg kalah aku..hhuhu

afterall, memang terasa seronok sebab perangai diorang boleh masuk dengan aku kot..
and Ramadhan buat ukhwah ni lebih kukuh. InsyaAllah I will never forget this one piece of memory and ofcourse saya akan datang tolong2 and melawat korang..

Kak Ina, Kak Nabilah (Pharmacist), Pn Winda ( Pharmacist Manager), Pn Hasnah ( my preceptor, consultant, Pharmacist)

sending sanah.

assalamualaikum..
last Sunday, we all went back to Johore to send Sanah into matricualtion.
*week before, I went to Johore and come back with a sore throat and cough,
and still not recover and my cough is getting worst,
I know, it has been more than a week.*

so, the first impression for matrix Johor is, it is huge and have so many blocks.
unfortunately, when my sister saw her room, she said,
" bilik dia lagi kecik dari bilik kak nurul"
I think it was actually the same but because her closet is in the middle of the room, it make the room crowded.
and they did not provide bed sheet and she has to use her own bed sheet yg colour block sgt..
whatever it is, it is your fate to be there,
to atleast make the same memories that I have in matrix,
believe me,
matrix is just so great and the memories there is irreplaceable and you wouldn't find it elsewhere.
and enjoy your orientation day!

Afterall, when it comes to the word matrix,

all the memories are rushing in..

it is a lie if I said I forgotten everything about matrix,

instead I miss everything.

I don't really like degree life,

if I want to conclude in one sentence, I would say, it is selfish.

I really miss matrix, where we all could laugh and cry under one roof,

to just have someone through out the day is just priceless.

Put it under my shoes,

here, in degree, I only be with my friends in the class.

After class, we went back home.

I almost forget, how it feels like to talk to someone just about everything,

to just gossips around, have fun, talk and let out everything to someone.

It has been a while I keep my mouth shut.

I totally forgot how to even talk randomly and say whatever that came into my mind.

I have forgotten how it feels like to have someone that will support you,

that will wake you up, that will help you, that will just sit with you.

It been a while I have the feeling of dependent on someone.

studies show that you will change every 4 years.

and maybe I am in that phase.

I dont even know how to be the way I was with everyone.

the only place I have to just be me is my home.

Those friendship made during matrix life, is just so valuable.

I just miss that,

when I just could go to anyone whenever I am bored.

who says?

assalamualaikum..

one girl, hate another girl,
one day that girl knew about it,
she is so sad and dissapointed because she did not know what she did wrong,
She try to ignore that girl because she does not want to make the girl hate her more,
they did not say anything to each other for years,
until one time, when she have no one and alone,
she only have one choice, which is to talk again to her,
each and everyday, is an awkward moment,
each and every move she did is to make sure that the girl does not hate it,
every word she said is so careful,
she is the type who will tell everything to her friend, but she did not.
Just because she does not want her to feel that she is bragging,
she is just being careful everytime,
but now, they are friend,
they seems so awkward,
but what she know is she is her friend,
atleast she have her as her friend. End.

will everything be the same?

assalamualaikum..
things are a bit complicated each day,
we are all getting busier,
and I don't even know what I want or need to do,
there is a lot of thing but I don't even know where to start,
and in the end I'm on a mood swing and all I want to do is broke down and just lay down,
not doing anything.
and right now, I am not feeling well, sore throats and losing my voice.
the worst part is, I have presentation tomorrow, which I don't know how am I going to do it with this voice,
and with least practice.
I don't really mind presenting infront, because it have been years I'm doing the presentation alone or in group.
so, maybe I just get it done and hoping that my throat will be better by the time I need to present.

sometimes, getting busy is what we have to do,
to ignore what we have in our mind and heart,
busy= accepting reality...or..... ignoring reality.

RESPONSIBILITY

assalamualaikum..
the first experience,
the most controversial General Election.
I was there, I was part of it.
I don't want to say a word on it because,
mencurah minyak ke api, hanya akan memburukkan keadaan.
my voice might be too small, I might be too young to say a word on it,
but what I could see, I couldn't deny.
Everyone have their own opinion,
and everyone strive to make their opinion accepted by others.
Without trying to listen..
afterall listen, listen, listen is what a Malaysian needs..
Malaysian have talk a lot and did not listen..

kepada mereka yang telah menginjak usia 21 tahun,
I was a bit sad, when they CHOOSE not to register as a voter.
they said that, they are not interested on politic, so they did not register intentionally.
they did not know who to choose,
my dear, did you know that it is your responsibility.
Even I who were born on November are still managed to mendaftar, dont give the tak-sempat-daftar excuse.
I WAS like that once, did not want to register...but my dad force me to.
and when I asked him, to whom shall I support and vote for,
he said to me,
" kau dah besar, sebab tu yang boleh mengundi ni yang berusia 21 tahun keatas, dah boleh berfikir sendiri tanpa pengaruh orang lain. Pilihlah yang betul-betul bantu menegakkan Islam."
and yes, he NEVER forced nor influenced me to choose which party or WHO to vote.
I decide it myself after hearing all the campaigns and flyers and manifesto or akujanji and etc FROM BOTH PARTY.
and yes, by time you will realize your capabality to think by yourself,
and most of it to know that the election is not a game,
not just for fun nor for the purpose of following others.
It is beyond all that, it is a RESPONSIBILITY.
The least is, in the akhirat, I could answer to HIM on what I have done to my country,
I have choose who I believe can lead us in the Islamic way,
and if the leader dissapoint us, that is what he is preparing for to answer at the day of judgement to all his citizen and most of it to the Lord, Allah.
I have done my part, and now let the government do theirs.
Hoping for a better Malaysia, without racism, without any fights, without fitnah, without corruption.