mari membebel 2~

finished 6 papers for this week..

fewwwhh..how is it??

not going to talk about this..

honestly, banyak gila drug name nak kene hafal..and nama tak boleh pulak kalau tak membelit lidah aku..

haila, haila...tak rock arr pharmacist tak blaja pharmaco and tak belit-belit lidah kan??

and maybe sebab ni kami belajar communication english with all the proper pronounciation of each and all alphabets??*erk..im not sure if we are going to talk to our patient with the british english and american english (great, while writing this, im saying all the words with the britishaccent..hua3..)

for all the examination, i think this is the most depressed examination i ever had kot..

i dont know what happen, but i have mood swing through out the week..

sapa-sapa cari pasal ngan aku memang nak kena lah kan..

and really-really-really thank you dekat awak-awak-awak-awak sebab tahan dengan tahap swing saya yang macam tsunami kot..xde alarm pape..tiba-tiba nak ngamuk..kui3..*blush~

but there is a saying,

'if you can be with me throughout the worst of me, then you worth to get the best of me..'

love you guys lah! you know who you are..

thanks for all the support throughout the day when i just need someone to say that its okay to cry, its okay to just membebel kat twitter..and it just nice to know someone that appreciate us and will be happy when we are happy..thank you..!! i've gain my strength!

get up!

assalamualaikum..

lets just read through all this retweet first:

~BFF……. B- stands for best, F- stands for friends, but the other F stands for FOREVER

~Sometimes some people come into our lives, make a huge impact on it & slowly fade away & there's nothing we can do about it.

~It's because#scorpios only care about a few & show this softer side to a few. The rest of the world sees our cold exterior

~If u turn ur back on #scorpio & realize u made a mistake, understand that it's too late for things to be normal again

~When hurt, #scorpio's have the inate ability to make you invisible,act as if you're dead to them.

Everything you see & everything you hear, definitely affects your heart..

Letting go hurts, but you know that if you were to keep holding on, you'll hurt yourself even more.

"You have 2 friends in this life: 1.ALLAH 2.Those who remind you of ALLAH

i know exactly what really happen between the two of us..
I had asked you the same question from the start and it had been almost a year and you always denied it!
if you be honest with me on your true feelings from the beginning, i could stop all this from the start..
why dont you stop us??
why must you sacrifice our friendship?
kau tahu camne aku value friendship kan?
once i accept a person in my life, i gained trust..it WONT be that easy for me to let it go?
so why now are you showing your little objection??
sorry aku buat kau sakit hati, kau rasa sakit dengan apa yang aku buat..
cuba kau fikir balik? betul ni yang kau nak??
adil ke kau buat aku macam ni sebab benda yang hanya kau je yang tahu..
sebab perasaan kau sendiri?
i dont wanna make assumption..tapi there are lots of thing yang aku sendiri nmpak..
and you yourself nak aku assume n paham sendiri kan??
what you should know is that I HATE making choices..
and i wont choose anything over anything..
i just wish you to be happy, its your choice..
bila orang dah berpaling daripada kita, pilihan apa yang boleh kita ambil selain teruskan kehidupan..
just one thing, bila kau perlukan aku, you just have to turn around..
if I'm not there..just remember that my prayer is always be with you..~

talking to the moon~

talking to the moon

trying to get to you

in hopes you're on the other side talking to me too

or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon

(talking to the moon-bruno mars)

yeah..this phrases truly said what deeply inside my heart.

i am trying to get to you..

i am hoping for you to talk to me..

i am trying really hard for saving this friendship..

and its true what people around told me..

bertepuk sebelah tangan takkan berbunyi..

this not just implies to just a relationship..but also a friendship..

remember that!

in any relationship there should be a give and take..

and nak tau what people told me for thousands of time??

' kau tak rasa kau je yang try untuk selamatkan friendship ni? bila kau nak belajar untuk let her go??'

BUT I ignore all that..i never listen..cause I truly care and love you..

you are my sahabat..and aku tau how u've changed..

but aku rasa you changed only with me..

seeing you with the other of our friend..macam tak ada pape pon..

kau boleh je tegur diorang cam biasa..

im sorry im beeing emotional here..

but i dont know what i did wrong..

so maybe i could conclude that i did a mistake that I just dont realize and you are just had enough of me..

if only i could..I would want to know the reason..seriously..

but knowing you..

that just an impossible..

silence is YOU..tapi silence wouldnt do any good..

our mistake is that..kita xpernah selesaikan semua ni..

each time things happen..either aku yg bawa diri..or kau yang terasa..we just apologized without exlaining..

this time..it just couldnt worked out..

apologizing couldnt do anything..

anda, aku diam bukan bermaksud aku dah lupa kau..sungguh aku rindu gila kau..tapi bila ingat balik sampai bila benda ni nak berulang banyak-banyak kali..and sampai bila hati aku nak sakit je bila kau ignore aku..atau mungkin hati kau sakit sebab aku..aku rasa memang aku kene biarkan kau dengan kehidupan kau sekarang..aku tak harap apa-apa dari kau..cuma aku nak kau gembira cam dulu..salah aku kot semua ni..apa-apa pon kau tak perlu mintak maaf sebab kau tak buat salah pon dengan aku..~just be happy with your life..its all that I want..and please be happy with me..

lesson on sahabat~

assalamualaikum dear sahabat..

oit! pe kaba?? lama xdengar cte ko..rindu dowh kat ko...!

i always asked this question to you when we chat..

do you know how I miss to said all this to you on the phone?

do you know how i miss hearing you asking me those question just like old time..?

you dont..thats why you never called and you just answer..' oit..bese je..xde cte pon..'

how am i supposed to prolong the conversation when the only words that i get is that?

how am i supposed to said this on phone when you never pick up my call?

thus, i ignored the coldness you created and still acting cheer n happy cause i truly miss you..

when actually the moment i asked you that, im hoping for you to asked me back on how's my condition..

BUT you never asked..

so i tried to talk..i tried to create conversation..

i tried my best to just make you say something..

but i failed..

how am i supposed to make a conversation when you obviously dont want to share anything with me?

sometimes..when you are in stress and have a problem..

i give advices to give you strength..

i asked you to seek Allah cause He knew the best..

but the only words that i hear is..'aku tak baik macam ko..'

what am i supposed to said anymore when my advices are just 'too good' for you..

for each things that i did..for each things that i make..

i never heard the words thank you..

for every action that i made, the only thing i get from you is sarcasm and critics..

and those words that made to annoyed me..

BUT I stayed here with you when you never see me right besides you..

maybe Im just a blind spot on your sides..Im there but you couldnt see..

what I'm asking you isn't much..

I just want you to stop being cold with me..

I'm once the person you called just because you are bored, because something new happen to you, when something too good or too bad happen..to share just a story despite its just a simple and plain story..just for the sake of saying something to each other..

BUT now..I'm the person who you give your harsh words to, person you dont want to talk to, person you no longer called, person you just want to ignore and a person whom you might just get annoyed..I dont know the reason why we changed..why we have to be like this..I never know the reason you did all those things to me..I never get a single explanation on it..~

i've been crying and hurting so much for the things that happen between us..

and that's why I've stopped asking how you've been and make distance from you..

this might be what you really want from me..~~~

I'm sorry if what i asked is too much..

but I just wish for once dear sahabat..

I never hate you..instead I love you so much..

but could you please be happy for me??

just the way I'm happy when I see you happy..

lesson to learn~

Adam.. jangan terlalu murah dalam berbicara dan jangan terlalu mudah engkau mengucapkan 'I LOVE U' dan 'I MISS U' kepada hawa kerana engkau pun tahu hawa itu sangat rapuh hatinya dan sangat mudah goyah imannya. Jika engkau ikhlas bergerak di jalan Allah dan ikhlas ingin memiliki mereka, maka datangilah wali mereka dengan lafaz bismillahirrahmanirrahim..
Hawa...jangan terlalu mudah engkau menilai hati seorang adam daripada kata-kata dan paras rupa,kerana engkau tidak akan dapat bezakan antara cinta yang suci dan nafsu. Peliharalah maruah diri mu untuk mereka yang halal terhadap mu. Bercintalah kerana Allah...''