I'm holding on to this~

:')

kalau~

kalau lah boleh diputarkan masa..

kalau lah dulu aku buat macam ni..

kalau lah aku tahu apa akan jadi sekarang..

kalau lah...

" Sabda Rasulullah SAW yang bermaksud:”Mukmin yang kuat lebih disukai oleh Allah daripada mukmin yang lemah. Namun pada kedua-duanya ada kebaikan. Berjaga-jagalah terhadap perkara yang boleh mendatangkan kebaikan kepada engkau, pintalah pertolongan daripada Allah. Sekiranya engkau ditimpa sesuatu musibah, maka jangan engkau berkata:”Sekiranya (kalau) aku lakukan begini maka sudah pasti lain yang berlaku. Tetapi katakanlah:”Itu merupakan takdir Allah dan Dia melakukan apa yang dikehendaki-Nya, sesungguhnya ‘kalau’ akan membukakan pintu amalan syaitan.” Riwayat Muslim"

perkataan kalau tu buat kita tak redha dengan apa yang Allah dah berikan kepada kita..

perkataan kalau tu buat kita tak terima qada' dan qadar Allah.

perkataan kalau tu memesongkan kita daripada menerima hadiah kehidupan yang Allah dah beri pada kita.

lupa kah kita pada ayat ini?

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. (Surah. Al Baqarah:216)"

p/s: rasa macam nak panjat broga lagi sekali and scream all I wanted..:')

strength!

even the strongest person in the world can break down to pieces..
twice.
that's what I could describe.
remember my apology last year? entry maaf ..
this thing happen again but with a different person.
yes, being called by a friend by those word, hurt me the most.
I am hurt that I cried all day long..only this time not as bad as before..
I don't want to said it again and again..
because it's already stuck in my mind.
I had seek my apology..but I am still searching for myself.
what make you called me that.
I even asked all my gfs to be truthful to me..
they know me more than anyone else and they would never lie to me.
I haven't change a bit.
maybe it just being with them, I am myself.
being with others, yeah, maybe I'm a fake, a hypocrite.
I just couldn't be me..
I've tried my best to suits everyone..
but it just, not me.
the condition, the environment itself is not me..
I'm sorry..
the only persons that I could be me are when I am with them..
only one person who always let me cry and wait for me to be okay..yeah, it's you.
only two person truly know me from the day I was born, they're my cousins.
only three person that will always there when I need them, share my sorrow and cheer me up..they're my girlfriends..
only four person who always support me and the presence are comforting and I know they just know what I've been through..they're my family..

i must be really disturbed that I bought this shoes but yet I still love this shoes!

comfy but yet it is still few inches height kot!

masuk lopak terbenam weyh..kui3..

but yet, the promoter asked me: dah biasa pakai heels ke?

me*dlm hati : nilah first heels saya..selama ni pakai wedges je..hoho

gain and share knowledge!

assalamualaikum..
akhirnya hospital attachment dah berakhir..actually dah berakhir hari jumaat lepas..
andnow, I am busy with the report..haisy..malas gila!
I'm doing my attachment at Hospital Putrajaya.
for this attachment I learnt a lot of things.
gaining and sharing knowledge, not only about pharmacist stuff but also about other religion and culture.
I was the only muslim in a group of 10 people.
semua classmates..2 chinese, 1 sabahan and the rest is indian.
they asked me all sort of question and since I am the only muslims, my answer did matter to clarify Islam in their eyes.
They asked me about the hukum hudud, why muslims have to cover the aurat and why there is a border between male and female and even muslims and non muslim.
all this I conclude into one, which is it is a way of prevention and protection.

hukum hudud?
bukan senang untuk jatuhkan hukum hudud. Banyak aspek yang kita kena teliti sebelum kita jatuhkan hukum hudud. pernah ustaz yang ajar dulu kata, hukum hudud tidak boleh dijatuhkan sesuka hati walaupun telah jelas seseorang itu mencuri. Kita kena kaji sebab dia mencuri dan munasabah ataupun tidak. Andai dia mencuri kerana dia tidak mampu langsung untuk menyara diri sendiri dan tiada seorang masyarakat yang membantu, ada hukum lain yang dijalankan bukan hanya atas dia tetapi atas masyarakat sendiri. Ini kerana  zakat dan bantuan adalah hak dia dan tanggungjawab masyarakat andai dia adlah fakir miskin. Kisah seorang nenek di Indonesia yang mencuri dan masyarakat sekeliling telah didenda adalah satu contoh. Hukum hudud bukan bersifat kejam tetapi lebih bersifat prevention. Langkah mencegah dan sebagai pengajaran.Wallahua'lam.

aurat?
aurat perempuan adalah semua kecuali muka dan tapak tangan. Lalu mereka bertanya, kenapa ada wanita yang berpurdah dan niqab. Ada banyak faktor seorang wanita berpurdah dan niqab iaitu faktor cuaca dan persekitaran dan juga faktor pemeliharaan. Di kawasan arab yang berpadang pasir, niqab bertindak sebagai pelindung dari cuaca panas dan debu memasuki rongga hidung. Faktor pemeliharaan adalah untuk mengelakkan fitnah. Pernah di zaman sekolah menengah ustazah ada cakap, andai adalah seorang wanita yang terasa diri dia sangat cantik atau tertalu ramai mendekati dia kerana wajahnya, maka seeloknya dia berpurdah untuk mengelakkan fitnah dan aib. Bila dah cantik, ramai yang akan ada hasad dengki, maka mulalah fitnah.


kenapa antara non-muslim dan muslim pon kena tutup aurat seperti perempuan dan lelaki ajnabi?
sebab dia pon bersifat pemeliharaan dari fitnah dan pemeliharaan aurat daripada yang ajnabi. Apabila kita tunjuk aurat pada yang non-muslim, aku ambil satu contoh, kalau lah rambut muslimah ni cantik sangat.. then non-muslim ni nampak..Kemudian dia pon sampai kan pada teman dia yang lelaki..'eh, disebalik tudung dia tu, rambut dia cantik sangat..panjang, lurus.. Ingatlah tujuan asal bertudung adalah menyorokkan aurat. Lagi satu, apa guna kita bertudung tapi bila ditanya lelaki ajnabi, kita pon jawab..'rambut aku ni baru rebonding, rawatan minyak panas..sekarang cantik berkilat, lurus..rambut aku baru buat curl, potong fringe and etc. what for? apa guna kita bertudung tapi bawah cahaya matahari nampak tengkuk dan nampak ikatan rambut.
kenapa kita tak boleh ada sanggul tinggi? sebab sanggul tinggi tu menandakan rambut kita panjang..

I heard in agama melayu, dia tak boleh pegang pon tangan BF dia..betul ke?
bila dengar ayat ni, aku just senyum dan jawab, kita ni actually bangsa melayu dan agama Islam. Tak ada istilah agama Melayu.. Cuma di Malaysia kita terbiasa, Melayu mesti Islam..tapi dah berapa ramai yang sekadar melayu dan tidak mengamalkan Islam. Bezakan Melayu dan Islam. Tidak semua melayu itu Islam. Yang soalan seterusnya aku just cakap 'yes, that's true. We could not touch nor hold hand with our boyfriend and even if you keluar dengan your boyfriend supposedly kena bawak family member which we called as mahram. Or else never go out just the two of you..

Then my friend (an indian) asked, 'how you are going to show your love? '
I answered, ' the best way is get married. (smile) This is how we are special, exclusive, only for our husband.'

why malay have all the hantaran and why it is from the man to the wife? ( for indian it's from wife to husband)
Hantaran adalah culture. Mas kahwin yang wajib. We have to differentiate between culture and religion.Why from man to wife? Sebab man are going to take responsibility from her father and she will have to give her full obedience to her husband. Therefore it is a gift to her wife which willing to forever patuh pada suami andai suami masih lagi berpaksi pada jalan Allah.

kalau mereka baca Al-Quran kenapa masih ada yang buat jahat dan sesat?
baca Al-quran tapi tidak faham maksud, tak akan bawak apa2 pon.. bulan ramadhan ni berlumba orang nak khatam quran. Tapi asked yourself dear muslims, how many people have done khatam quran bersama maksud? Aku juga suatu masa dulu begitu bekejar nak khatam qur'an tapi kemudian aku tanya diri sendiri..apa guna aku khatam tapi satu maksud pon aku tak tahu. Thus now, aku slow and steady.. I've started reading the terjemahan since last year tapi the first attemp failed since I read the english version..In the end I just read the qur'an. After khatam, I changed to terjemahan bahasa melayu and now, alhamdulillah, aku dah berada di juzuk 4 bersama maksud. Indah tahu ayat qura'n bila dibaca dengan maksud. Baru bermakna apa yang dibaca. Baru faham. so kenapa ada yang buat jahat? sbb baca tapi tak paham..(itupun kalau baca). kenapa sesat? Sbb baca, faham terjemahan, tapi tiada guru yang betul2 belajar dan kaji Qura'n. kenapa perlu guru? sebab tanpa guru, kita akan translate guna bahasa kita. Dalam Islam pon kita disuruh berguru sebanyak mungkin dan kita boleh ambil majoriti.

banyak lagi soalan yang aku rasa interesting.. Sebenarnya mereka ada banyak salah faham tentang Islam. Tanggungjawab kita adalah untuk menjelaskan kembali kepada mereka. Rasanya ilmu aku masih tak cukup untuk jawab. Aku jawab pon sekadar yang mampu. Kadang2 terkedu juga, bila nak jawab takut ia akan memburukkan lagi persepsi mereka terhadap Islam. Bila tak tahu, jawablah sejujurnya dan rujuklah ustaz dan ustazah..

this is us, my friends, classmates during the attachment. enjoy being with them cause they understand me as a muslim and respect my responsibility such as solat and aurat. =)

it's HIS plan..not ours..~

bismillah..
Assalamualaikum..
Kita hanya merancang..Allah yang menentukan..
kadang-kadang apa yang kita doa, apa yang kita mohon, Allah tak bagi..
kadang-kadang bukan Allah tak bagi..tapi Allah akan bagi pada masa yang sesuai..
cuma manusia ni kurang kesabaran..
bila Allah tak bagi terus putus asa, terus lupa nikmat lain yang Allah bagi..
Astaghfirullah, aku pon camtu jugak kot..
but yup, Allah tunjuk jugak kat aku, orang yang sabar, akan diberi ganjaran yang setimpal.
Dulu, specifically tahun lepas, 16 july 2012..
I was planning something..really hoping that it will happened..
back at that time, I was unsure, undecided, not ready..
and maybe that is why Allah does not let it to happen..

but then this year..the same saturday, the planned was succeed..
Alhamdulillah..and at that moment I am really sure with everything..
I've decided. I've made my choice..
back at last year, there are too many things unsolved, too many questions, too many misunderstanding.
If the plan were succeed back then, I don't know what will happen today.
it might be something that I regret, it might make me not the person I am today.
yeah, day by day from that day which the plan is made and cancelled, I've changed.
I can see from the way I dressed last year and today.
back then, I still haven't protect my aurah completely, I am lacking here and there and still am lacking.
but I tried my best to be the best.

what i wanted to say here is that, setiap perkara ada hikmah dia..
walau sebaik mana perancangan kita, kalau bukan masanya, bukan jodohnya, ia tetap tidak akan terjadi.
kita mungkin tidak dipertemukan dalam keadaan kita yang masih jahil.
kita mungkin tidak bertemu dalam keadaan kita yang lemah
kita mungkin tidak dipertemukan dalam keadaan kita yang belum bersedia.
kita mungkin tidak dipertemukan dengan cara yang mengaibkan.
I'm happy to say that the plan is cancel last year. Thank You Allah.
Allah knows what is the best for me and all of us.
AND, patient is sweet, changes is sweet and Allah's plan is sweeter!

believe in Allah, for His plan is the best, and believe in Allah cause He will never dissapoint you..InsyaaAllah!

currently listening~

"Distance"

The sun is filling up the room

And I can hear you dreaming

Do you feel the way I do right now?

I wish we would just give up

Cause the best part is falling

Call it anything but love

And I will make sure to keep my distance

Say "I love you" when you're not listening

How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And please don't stand so close to me

I'm having trouble breathing

I'm afraid of what you'll see right now

I give you everything I am

All my broken heart beats

Until I know you understand

And I will make sure to keep my distance

Say "I love you" when you're not listening

How long can we keep this up, up, up?

And I keep waiting

For you to take me

You keep waiting

To save what we have

So I'll make sure to keep my distance

Say "I love you" when you're not listening

How long can we keep this up, up, up?

Make sure to keep my distance

Say "I love you" when you're not listening

How long til we call this love, love, love?

oh englishku..~

assalamualaikum..

dah lama rasa tak update info dekat blog kan?

this entry is just a 2 cent from me..

pernah dengar rancangan oh my english..

it's good actually even for us yang kekonon dah dewasa walaupun target penyampaian adalah untuk golongan remaja..

*ops, saya masih remaja..

yes, nowadays, we are too dependent on english language rather than our bahasa jiwa bangsa..

yesterday, while doing the attachment, one of the pharmacist asked, "so, MSU is using english-based education right? sometimes, we used english language that we forgot our own language.,"

this is totally true..

when we dispense to patient, for our country most of the patient are makcik2, pakcik2..

not that all the elderly doesnt know how to communicate in english but what I'm saying is the majority have better understanding in malay language..how can we applied what we've learnt in english to malay language is one of the problem..

example in hlovate book, how can we asked the patient if he/she have palpitation or not.. 

takkan nak tanya 

'makcik ada rasa palpitation ke tak?'

'palpitation tu apa cu?'

'errr..berdebar-debar? jantung laju? lub dub lub dub?'

kui3..sometimes malay words sound so funny when we translate it from english..

AND, one more thing is that, 

one may know grammar, but they cant communicate in english,

one may not know how to communicate but have lots of grammatical error..

here one thing is, 

confident is good.BUT too confident dan taknak belajar untuk berubah lebih baik is not good!

some people are just too confident to write in english but if the words is obviously wrong, it make the reader misinterpret what we are going to say..

I, myself are not that good in english..make few grammatical error and etc..but the least is I know each and every words mean..

example..feel and fell is too different..

feel is rasa/ menggambarkan perasaan while fell is jatuh..got it?

and somehow learn to use 'I am' correctly..

one more is the uses of the word annoy.

I am annoyed not I am annoying~

I am annoyed means saya marah, menyampah.

I am annoying means saya adalah seorang yang menyampah..(malay grammatical error here..but the best I could describe)

so got it? anyhow..I am not good in english myself..

but the big mistakes like the one that I have described better be corrected before kita memalukan diri sendiri..

as long as our english orang faham..it's ok I think..because human brain are made by Allah that have the specialty to interpret the idea eventhough it is not correctly presented.

so, just let it understandable okie..bye2..

p/s: Ustaz Don taknak buat rancangan Oh My Tajwid ke??hihi xD

the end of second year~

assalamualaikum..
hye, I am Nurul Hidayah binti Sheikh Abdullah.
just finished my final examination for semester 4 (second year) of bachelor of pharmacy, MSU.
Alhamdulillah selesai sudah final yang seriously mencabar..next semester 10 subjek weyh! teruja gila! @_@
so dah start holiday ke cik dayah??
harapan...
price of being a pharmacy student - hospital attachment!!!
so, start esok, bermulalah attachmentku di hospital putrajaya..
bye2 shah alam indah permai! *ireallydoloveshahalamsomuch!
so cuti dua hari ni ingat nak berehat dirumah sambil tidur golek2..~harapan~
tak ada maknanya..serious bangun pagi hari sabtu tu dark circle memang gila cam panda dah..
ni semua sebab paper toxicology hari jumaat tu..
hari khamis ada paper pharmaco blood and cvs  from 230 to 530..and toxico next day pukul 9 pagi..
memang tak tido lah kan!!
and habis paper toxico pukul 11 still kena tunggu kat msu for briefing attachment pukul 2!!
huwaa.. habis briefing kena beli barang dekat sacc..bawak kereta pon rasa cam nak pejam mata je..~bahayanya ko ni dayah!
so selasa keluar bergosip dengan favourite cousins! yasmin and faten.. tak sedar diri ko min nak exam selasa..nasiblah UiTM tu dekat..haha
then balik berjimba, pegi family dinner dekat sime darby convention centre..
seronok gila lah kan ucu belanja makan..

the dessert!

dah gemok dah aku skang..wakaka..sekian terima kasih =.=