cantik~

assalamualaikum..
cantik tu subjektif..bukan mat lutfi je kata..
ramai lagi orang yang kata..
ada orang kata kurus macam victoria beckam tu lawa.
ada orang kata gemuk tu lawa.
ada orang kata pakai make up tu lawa.
ada orang kata bare face tu lawa.
ada orang kata yg pakai cermin mata tu handsome.
ada orang kata yang pakai baju kemeja tu gay-ish look.
macam-macam lah orang kata..

tapi aku dan orang lain ada jugak kata....cantik tu untuk siapa?
dulu, badan berisi, gemuk..
muka berjerawat, jeragat, gelap..
waktu tu, beria-ia kata nak ubah penampilan..
nak lagi cantik..jaga badan, jaga makan..
dan waktu tu jugak, semua gambar dekat facebook di hide kan..
tak pon ambil gambar pon tak nampak muka,
baju besar-besar, labuh tutup semua..
bersederhana sebab kita nak tutup kekurangan kita..

TAPI...lepas dah cantik dan kurus lepas guna produk A, produk B..
tup2 tukar profile picture..
gambar yang nampak badan kita dah kurus, muka dah nampak tirus,
privasi gambar pon dibuka maka ramailah yang komen..
cantiknya awak sekarang..kurusnya awak...
lepas tu setiap bulan tukar gambar baru..
kali ini tiada lagi kekurangan yang nak kita tutup..
lupa kah kita untuk bersederhana?

kadang-kadang bila kita hodoh, buruk, gemuk, berisi..
masa itu kita sedar diri kita..
kita jaga adab, jaga batas..dan yang penting JAGA DIRI KITA..
tapi..bila dah cantik kita sibuk jaga makan, jaga perhiasan diri sampai kita tak terjaga perkara yang kita ada dulu..
sedangkan ia adalah yang paling penting untuk kita.
bukan paras rupa yang tentukan siapa kita.,.
akhlak kita yang utama..
bila kita ada kekurangan, kita selalu beringat..selalu bersederhana..
bila kita ada kelebihan, kita lupa itu adalah ujian Allah..masa tu kita perlu lebih beringat..
lebih bersederhana..~
cantik itu untuk siapa?
Lillahitaa'la.

memujuk~

assalamualaikum..

al-insyirah.

surah Al-Insyirah.

surah memujuk, surah penenang diri.

my favourite surah.

dulu waktu zaman sekolah agama, memang hafaz sebab nak lulus hafazan..

namun ilmu tanpa amal tak berguna..lama-lama lupa.

but then bila dah masuk sekolah menengah,

abah made me hafaz this surah again together with ad-dhuha *real forcing me to!

my "vocab" for surah at that time is sooooo few.

dalam solat dok ulang al-ikhlas, an-nas *sedih ;-(

so afterwards, surah ni sentiasa berada di fikiran.

during my SPM trial,

my teacher said to us, if you are nervous in the examination hall,

remember to recite this surah.

I never knew until then that the surah dapat tenangkan hati..

because I never really care about the meaning.

until today,

I recite it in every of my prayer.

At the time that I found difficulties,

I recite this surah.

At the time that I cried,

I recite this surah.

At the time that I stumbled to the ground with no one to held me up,

I recite this surah.

because i believed..."Bahawa sesunnguhnya tiap-tiap kesusahan 

disertai kemudahan"

the funny part that I could tell you is that,

waktu aku buat experiment dengan tikus.

which I have to feed the mice with a drug (metformin and glucose) and then we have to take the blood sample by making a small cut at the tail of the mice,

I recite this surah to the mice.

I felt really sorry to the mice.

each group have to take two mice, for the control and the test.

our mice seems to have this connection that we could describe by the way they take care of each other.

they protect each other from being touch by us and even lick each other wound.

But the mice remain really calm and good.

they even slept at the time interval before we check the blood again.

It so sad and emotionally touch.

this is why I hate experiment with animal!:'(

unfortunate, it is for the sake of knowledge.

the cutie good and well-behaved mice..:')

this surah, really make me feel calm,

and make me stronger and stronger.

make me feel....Terpujuk..

life ain't easy.

people talk, people hate.

for what I could be,

I could be me.

The best of me.

InsyaAllah.

timeline~

assalamualaikum..
i really hate fb auto public on timeline!
kita nak privacy..but fb always made it public..
dahlah dengan the timeline thing make everything easy for people to stalk others.
stalk the past, the presence.
media untuk pecah belahkan manusia lagi..
I really hate it and that's why I moved on to twitter.
lagipun fb hanya akan buat aku ingat satu kenangan.
yang aku taknak bukak balik dah.
semuanya dah tersimpan.
walau macam mana gembiranya aku tengok yg lain masih bukak kisah lama.
borak dan komen,
aku taknak ganggu, taknak buat orang lain sedih.
biar aku hilang tiada yang cari.


tak perlu tuang minyak ke api.
aku tahu batas aku.

P/S: jom pegi shopping esok area radiusite, sugarscarf, cala qisha and etc !

school activity!

assalamualaikum..
fuh fuh..kenkonon cam busy sangat jelah aku ni..
tapi seriously agak busy jugaklah..
dengan assignment yang makin menimbun, quiz yang bagai coklat jatuh ke ladang gandum, dgn school activity lagi..
actually aku tak ada lah terlibat sangat..
memula memang aku termasuk dalam AJK orientation junior..
as always, my forever job is to be the club photgrapher *mcm pandai sangat ambil gambar kan? =.=
punyalah rajin aku datang tiap kali meeting padahal kalau aku tak ada pon tape since ambil gambar je pon..
but on the day itself, I have to give up my job..
after passed my camera to my classmates, I've rushed to the hospital due to abah rasa tak sihat.
responsibility as a daughter comes first!
abah warded for one day for all the test and etc and the next evening dah discharged.
Alhamdulillah tak ada apa-apa.but the picture are with me since I'm the AJK.
and sorry to my poor mentee yang tak dapat jumpa their mentor..
but I've manged to contact my mentee and get to know them on the next day.
3 lelaki and 2 perempuan..
my junior is sooo lucky to have us as a senior.
waktu kami dulu, we dont have anyone to look for..

next even baru je berlangsung tadi..

poolside potluck with japanese student?

did I mention that we have exchanged student from Japan? ye we do have!

and insyaAllah next year kalau ada rezeki and peluang mungkin aku pon dapat exchange ke Jepun for industrial/ community attachment..hoho

and and we also have student from Indonesia!

and yup we also could done our attachment there..

so potlcuk ni best gila since semua makanan lecturer bawak AND the food..HEAVENLY!

semua bawak makanan dari negara masing2..*sbb lecturer mostly from middle east

mandi chicken rice, shawarma (sedap gila!), damdam, capati with mutton and etc..

memotong lemang since aku sorang je melayu kat situ. =.=

lecturer with their dishes

shawarma by dr rasha! sedap!

hamek ko makanan!

the AJK's and hujung tu lecturer favourite budak perempuan.

seronok associate professor dari Jepun tu tengok dean aku ambil makanan

paling rendah, paling comot aku lah tu..=.=

Fading Flowers

you get that walk walk walk

got that talk talk talk

got that swagger er er

such a glamor or or

you're like a real life doll

with your hair that falls

like niagara a a

but that don't matter er er

cause that don't change the fact

that your heart is black

you can't tear me down

beat me to the ground

try to block my sunshine

my blue skies with your clouds

and who do you think you are

yeah that won't get you far

you may think you're pretty

but you'll see that beauty is a fading flower

fading flow-ow-ow-ower

fading flow-ow-ow-ower

you'll only play play play

if you get your way always

in the center er er

of attentio-o-on

all the lying and the cheating

the mistreating

how you even sleep at nigh-igh-ight

blows my mi i i ind

i wonder when you'll see

that you don't bother me..

i spent all my youth

trying to be you

thought you were special

that you were beautiful

but the more of you I see

the more I'm glad I'm me

(fading flower by yuna)

this new song from yuna had just stucked in my head..

i'm glad rather than having gangnam song stuck in the head..erghh..

she got attitude, confidence and she have succeed..

despite her dressing (her turban and legging), she is still awesome!

p/s: i heard that this song is dedicated for those people who had once bullied her..i am not sure bout it..but the lyrics do describe kan?

raya with my love

assalamualaikum..
gempak sangat je tajuk kan??
tapayah nak negative sangatlah bila baca entry dah fitnah aku gedik bagai..
okie, ni entry nak cerita berjalan-jalan dengan girlfriend je okie..
so, kalau dah beraya dengan girlfriend pergi rumah girlfriend jelah..
for all this years, kami beraya dekat shah alam jelah..
kami seriously rapat sangat2 sampai family pon rapat.
dah anggap macam ibu bapa sendiri dah lagi2 bila tahu ada jodoh berkait antara parents kitorang..
apa special raya tahun ni.
ada dua perkara yang special, we met our old gang tapi tak full lah..
originally, our gang have 9 gfs.nani teha yin dayah linda lin didi faten and miza.
yang ada haritu adalah the four of us + didi miza and faten
miza, faten and nani adalah cousins..cuma bila kami hangout kami selalu keluar sama2..maka mereka adalah asset berharga untuk buat surprise untuk nani. SHHHHH!
agak best lah..and kami jumpa jugak dgn our schoolmate, adilah ali..
kami dah lama gila tak jumpa dgn any of our schoolmate kecuali yang dekat MSU (for me)

the second difference for this year raya is that kami dapat beraya dalam suasana kampung..
duuhh, Shah Alam is obviously bandar..
walau macam mana seksyen 2 and 3 ni a kampung since ramai warga emas di kawasan ni, ia tetap takkan dapat suasana kekampungan tu..
tapi sejak fatehah berpindah ke bukit badak, seksyen 36 Shah Alam *wujud okay seksyen tu, kami dapat gak jumpa sungai, titi, kebun pisang, reban ayam,rumah kampung.. .(teruja sekejap)
bukanlah aku tak ada kampung yang bersuasana kampung..
ada! tapi different bila kita raya dengan kawan sekolah, bestfriend kat kampung..hoho
so, apa-apa pon makan memang best lah kan walaupon western..kenyang sampai malam!
and, aku bab makan waktu raya tak control..lagilah bila orang dah kata aku makin kurus..=.=

my girlfriends

that is the shawl that I sew the lace myself and the gfs had ordered it walaupun tempahan tak dibuka.

 the yellow tudung is Miza..currently studying at UiTM Melaka tak silap saya..tu jarang jumpa..:'(

that gorgeous girl is didi! the model-tall didi..

ni di rumah teha dengan akmal a.k.a debab a.k.a adik nani

abes segala tunggul kayu kami posing.

bandar masuk kampung.

akmal's photograph.

once in a while :-)

love this photo!

p/s: yang jauh dalam ingatan cukuplah..jauh tak semestinya tak rapat, jauh tak semestinya tak sayang.. Ada kebaikan dalam jarak ini..insyaAllah.

remember!