me!

one. I have moved on.

two. i never did anything unintended.

three. i learn to forgive the past but never forget. I stand on reality not fantasy.

four. i won't hold grudge. it's your loss not mine.

five. once friend forever friend. once enemy, it's not impossible to be friend.

six. i believe in myself, only on my words and not others.

seven. i have the ability to ignore others and leave without mercy.

eight. i have the ability to make someone unheard, invisible, and nonexistent.

nine. i can be ignorant. I do what I think the best cause Allah is with me.

ten. I am no longer the old innocent, too fragile, too sensitive HIDAYAH that you have ever known. If you can change because what I did. Why I cant change too. I did what I did not to show off what I have. I did what I did not to tell, not for you to see. I did because I learnt that keep hiding from the truth are not the right way as it is. Facing the reality is the thing that I always keep in mind. People might judge, people might say things, people does not listen and people keep blaming! one sentence dear hater, REALITY IS WHAT WE DEAL ON!

i have taboo with electronic gadget! T.T

assalamualaikum..
wuwuwuwuwuwuwuwuwu..:'(
rasa cam nak nangis je..
last month, my laptop rosak..suddenly hardisk not found lah apalah..
dua laptop aku problem yang sama..!sedih..
so, pujuk abah beli laptop baru..payah gila!
macam2 abah suruh kaji segala..dahlah dengan assignment bertimbun..
bingit telinga adik bising tiap kali pinjam laptop dia..~~~
atlast Alhamdulillah..abah belikan jugak laptop Fujitsu LH531~
dah elok baru nak seronok dapat laptop baru..
handphone vivaz kesayangan aku dah mula buat tanda2 yang tak dikehendaki..
wuwuwuwuw..
sekarang ni tak boleh charge pulak..puas dok belek phone.
pening dah kepala kenapa lampu merah dia or charging icon tak kuar2..
sob3.
ak kot ada taboo dengan alat electronic..wuwuwuwuwuwu..
masalah dia, phone walkwan w300 aku ok je..
skang boleh lagi pakai even dah 6 tahun kot..
why? why must you do this to me..
please..dont do this..I love you lah vivaz..need you badly..T.T

p/s: my sis call me donghae, the one in SUPER JUNIOR..cause he also can't deal with electronic stuff..~~:'(

wordless wednesday!

love.love.love.

love this!

thank you for the pendrive <3

how we as a muslim should be~

assalamualaikum...
this is the video that I watch shared by Aiman Azlan, a vlogger..

I never knew who is Yusuf Estes..I watch because of what Aiman Azlam quoted from this video..

'my point is not to put down bible, my point is to put down the people who lie about it- yusuf estes'

Yusuf Estes is a christian preacher..yup pendakwah kristian.
he converted to Islam not because of Islam itself. It is because he learnt the bible first.
He learnt the original language of hebrew and find that there is a lot of manipulation inside of the translation bible and he search for the truth and find Islam.
for so many times I watch this video, I cry over it.
why?
because it touch my heart to see how people find Islam.
I was born with Islam, born in a so-called Islamic country.
BUT
as what I saw..people take Islam for granted.
Islam is only a tradition and not to be believe in the heart
and not as our way of life.
why were you a muslim?
'because I was born as a muslim..'
this are the things that I saw.
they are muslims, but they are not covering their aurah.
they are muslims, but they free to socialized with an ajnabi.
Lots of other people that wasn't born with Islam and Iman was searching for god.
They find ways to be closed to god.
They search, they learnt, they asked question, they observed the religion.
But how can they be attracted to Islam when US as a muslim are not attracted to our own religion?
how can they find Islam as a way of life when we doesn't make Islam as our way of life?

what touch me is when the christian man and the other sister were given hidayah. How amazing how in one night he can send his dakwah and converting people to Islam. In a night, how many pahala that he has been granted by Allah.Subhanallah.

Yusuf Estes said..' the reason we cry when we said the syahadah can't be understand by all of you (the muslims) because when we said the syahadah, we felt the rahmah. We felt different because all of our sin are forgiven and we are just like a newly born baby. And at the moment, our do'a are accepted by Allah'

'Allah is the one who guide us..not me, not anyone..'

'5 words in english: surrender, submission, sincerity, obedient and peace..combine all this in arabic word we'll get, ISLAM'

'nobody can control your heart. It yours'

make up, fashion designing. modelling

assalamualaikum..
semua yang berikut, bukanlah untuk seorang yang bernama nurul hidayah.
aku suka make up kan orang, suka menyuai padankan pakaian dengan seseorang dan suka suruh orang posing..kui3..
so, mangsa kali ni adalah adik aku yang balik cuti sekolah..sapa lagi lau yang duduk asrama tu..hihi..
so, selendang, make up dan gambar adalah dari hasil karyaku..
sekian sahaja entry ini.








p/s: muka tengah ada jerawat, xde makna aku nak jadi model. one more thing, aku jarang pakai eyeshadow n blusher sebab kulit sensitip..XP

fun fact with medical stuff 2 *for ladies~

assalamualaikum..
topic ni dibuat selepas belajar pharmaceutic for respiratory and renal disease tentang water retention in the body..
salah satu penyakit yang disenaraikan adalah premenstrual pain.
tahu? yup, semua perempuan tahu..so nanti aku akan selitkan pasal water retention ni.
kepada yang baca entry ni..lelaki atau perempuan, i made this for general knowledge.
Not because I want to aibkan diri sendiri or etc. but its just for sharing. No harm kan..?
so, I will list out a few question yang orang lelaki or perempuan selalu tanya..*again, no harm!'

1. kenapa perempuan selalu emosi terganggu bila 'time' dia setiap bulan?
believe me, kalau dalam keadaan yang sakit, tak ada orang yang emosi dia tak terganggu. Cuba korang fikir, kalau korang jatuh motor pon, kaki terluka sikit ke, tangan terhiris pisau pon korang dah mengaduh, dah cari mak dan emosi lebih sampai nangis..so agak2 patut ke bila period pain anda akan tersenyum? paling2 pon the girl akan duduk diam daripada biasa. Serious. Thus, major reason untuk emosi dia terganggu adalah sakit dan tidak selesa.

2. sakit sangat ke?
sakit sangat tu depends dekat setiap perempuan tu. Ada yang biasa, ada moderate dan ada teruk. Yup, ada seorang kawan aku yang teruk sangat period pain dia sampai dia kene admitted in the hospital bila dia kena tiap bulan. Dependant on drugs each time. Simptom biasa adalah sakit kepala, nausea, vomitting, sweating, sakit belakang dan peha, cramp pada kawasan bawah abdomen, pitam and etc.

3. kenapa sakit?
sebab secretion of enzyme called postaglandin which associated with pain and inflammation. Then uterus will contract and release its lining. Proses inilah yang menyebabkan sakit sebab darah terhalang untuk sampai ke lining uterus. Selain daripada sebab ini, period pain jugak terjadi sebab penyakit-penyakit lain yang mungkin agak serius contohnya tumor and etc.

4. Kenapa bila PMS (premenstrual syndromme) perempuan akan rasa gemuk/ kembung and etc?
kat sinilah part yang dinamakan water retention terjadi. Water retention untuk PMS adalah disebabkan imbalance of hormone estrogen and progesterone dalam badan. ketidakseimbangan hormon ini akan menyebabkan water daripada blood akan enter interstitial membrane. Maka akan menyebabkan keadaan dimana kita rasa gemuk, kembung, dan istilah medic untuk muka yang macam kembang tu adalah moon face.

5. macam mana nak elak or nak kurangkan period pain?
Untuk natural treatment adalah through exercises and diet. Banyakkan buah dan sayur. Elakkan caffein, benda manis dan masin. Ubat pulak selalunya orang amek panadol for menstrual yang warna pink tu dan kebanyakan ubat adalah pain killer. Normally, period pain are not suggested untuk ambil ubat. Dont make your body to dependant on drug! Please..selagi boleh avoid, avoid lah..huhu..one more thing, sila minum banyak air!

ok, cukup lah kot aku jawab dan share benda ni..aku pon segan gak nak menaip tapi tak salah share. Semua orang ada perempuan dalam hidup dia. Tak mak, ada adik, akak, kawan perempuan, in the future anak. Its a good thing kalau diorang tahu serba sedikit..

p/s: ingat lagi form 3 lepas subjek sains, budak laki ramai gila tanya kat budak perempuan kelas aku pasal benda ni..dan mungkin sebab kitorang budak sains, gila tak malu jawab dengan selamba..kui3. eh, tapi bukan aku lah yang jawab =.=

the vow~

assalamualaikum blogger..

actually i am stuck doing my assignment..ngee..

so just taking a break for a while*seriously dayah, u write an entry for your break?Duh! O.o

ok, whatever..

I just watch The Vow and I found it interesting..

but yet, its just a good movie not the must watch movie.hihi

♥ I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love.I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other.- The Vow ♥

♥ I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands, to speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home.♥

♥ Life's all about moment of impact, and how they change our lives forever but what if one day you could no longer remember any of them? ♥

these are the quotes in the movie that catch my ears and heart.*too cheezy dayah..

i have one vow to a friend,

'i wont turn my back at you till you are the one that turning yourself from me..kita kawan dunia akhirat. Tegur aku kalau aku buat salah, and ingatkan aku kalau aku terlupa.'

yup, i made that vow..

and till the last time we text each other,

I am the one that doesn't reply..

why?

because its enough for me to take it anymore.

I never really left, I didn't make choices.

You are.

I never blame you, it just you never listen to each of the thing I said.

The fact that I just realized it now..

I know its late.

I realized that you are better off without me,

and you are no longer there, you've move on.

For the last time I would tell you, thanks for being there once for me, every moment that we've been through together at matrix are worth remembered.

You've been there for me, listening to all my rambling,

take care of me like I am your sister and hold my hand when we go out together.

the three of us.

The fact that you bring love in my life, thank you.

It not enough but thats the only thing I could say.

One fine day, when I think we are all are ready, I will unblock you back.Sorry.