2011~

.tomorrow had past.

.never regret.

never look back.

is it true?.

.without past, we are not who we are today.

i learnt to give myself a chance.

i learnt to let go.

.i learnt to move on.

.the time i had finally move on is the time i give myself chance for others to know me.

.to understand me.

.to be with me.

.but, as this time comes, i lost a person i really cared about.

.its not your fault, its not our fault.

.its takdir.

.what Allah had meant for us.

.it might be a test for our friendship.

.and I think we had just failed the test.

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.Allah telah berikan kita banyak nikmat dekat duni ni..dia yang memberi..Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Menyayangi.

.perasaan sayang pon satu nikmat yang Allah bagi dekat hambanya.

.dia yang tumbuhkan perasaan sayang kita terhadap seseorang dengan tujuan untuk saling mengingati Dia dan untuk bantu permudahkan kehidupan kita di dunia yang penuh dengan dugaan dan cabaran.

.Manusia selalu lupa tentang satu hakikat.

.Allah berhak menarik balik nikmat sayang dari diri kita.

.bila-bila masa.

.tujuannya: kita mungkin sayang sesuatu, sedangkan ia buruk untuk kita. dan kita mungkin benci sesuatu, sedangkan ia amat baik untuk kita.

.Hanya Allah yang tahu sebab dan akibatnya.

friend till jannah :')

pertandingan video Osem APG '11..

memang awesome..

sahabat till jannah will you?

go~

.i often tell myself to let it be that i forget that sometimes let it go is the best answer.

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.i dont have the solution for us.

.biarlah Allah lebih mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk kita.

.im sorry that i couldnt understand you.

.deep down, i blame myself.

.but i know its not anyone fault.

.it ain't a crime to have feelings.

.i just wish that we never gone through this.

.i miss how we used to be.

.sorry.

sahabat

Persahabatan kerana ALLAH..

memberi tanpa diminta,

menyokong tanpa minta disanjungi,

memuji bukan kerana budi,

berkorban tanpa menuntut ganjaran,

carilah persahabatan atas dasar iman,

kita akn tahu bahawa persahabatan itu amat manis rasanya dan menyenangkan,

carilah perjuangan yg brprinsip & dredhai Allah, di dataran itulah kita akan menemui

SAHABAT SEJATI

tiba-tiba teringat pasal quotes ni..~

. I AM PATHETIC.

. I am still stuck in the past.

. Who cares?.

.Whatever.

. I know I will be scold by my gf for still not move on, but I'm sorry its too hard.

. dah lah dayah, asyik membebel, merengek-rengek..tak reti nak jadi matang?kuat boleh tak?.

.ok macam apa cakap sorang-sorang dekat blog.

.to you, my sahabat..i know you are reading this, i know you will never hate me! i know n i just knew. stop lying to yourself. our memories n friendship aint that cheap for you to forget. i know you and dont lie. stop lying to yourself. I dare you to tell me directly how much you hate me, how much you dont want me in your life and how much you want me to leave..tell me directly..please, that's the only way i can move on..i dont believe in reading. not sms not skype, not fb not email.. do me a favor to help me let you go. im not strong to do this alone.

exam mode

dah empat paper berakhir tadi..

pharmacology CNS, physical pharmacy I, pharmacy practice II and organic chemistry..

honestly paper susah gila =.=

sorry umi abah..wuwu..~~

sincerely i just wish kalaulah ada masa yg ckp..

but dont blame masa..maybe aku yg xstudy dari awal..

tapi assignment n report sangat banyak..

cmne nak study..wuwu~~

ok2 dah jgn nak meraung..

next sem manage your time..

this is what pharmacist student are supposed to pay kot..

tape2..future may be brighter..~

p/s: i really miss u..u know who u are..i still have hope that one fine day, we''ll gone through all this..you will be stronger..and I just knew that you never hate me..n never will..you care for me..then and now..but i will let u have your time..dear bestfriend, come back when u feel its time..forgive me..:'(

arms

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

The world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved
I never wanna leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone

You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go

I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth
And I've never opened up
I've never truly loved 'Till you put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go


I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let a love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

You put your arms around me and I'm home

love story- talk of the town~

ni dah entry ke 3 kot pasal love story neh..
pape pon..if u are following my blog u'll know u can count berapa entry yang i wrote on love story..~

nowadays seriously banyak gila kot orang dok berkata tentang couple tu haram and etc..
aku tahu benda ni since matrix..
but i dont bother much..
just dengar jelah..and somehow just terima je benda tu..
BUT..bila dah makin lama diorang bincang bend ni..
i made my own initiative to search for it for the sake of knowledge..
tak salah kan tmbh ilmu..lagipon u know..
im a girl..girl loves love story..~yada2..

for me..what's wrong in couple is the thing yang diorang buat..
expecially the normal things that they thought is a compulsary kalau in the relationship..
tak paham?
semua benda yang tak boleh antara lelaku and perempuan yang bukan mahram..
pegang tangan and etc.
untuk cakap benda ni haram or tak, im not the person to talk about it..

so from what i understand and what i read through things here and there..
and i actually pernah tanya benda ni tu my lecturers..
this is a few yang i got..






nak lagi?? korng boleh tengok kat blog theotherkhairul untuk baca details and other rujukan he gave..promote blog dia skali since he's blog usually kutuk perempuan..but what he said is actually true..*sigh..

people, tak semua bnda kita boleh jatuhkan hukum sesuka hati..
and tak semua bnda kita boleh terima bulat2..
once we read something lagi2 dekat alam maya ni..
do your research first before conclude it..
and the most important thing is, find a teacher..
kitorang pernah tanya lecturer kat matrix pasal couple since dia pon baru kawen ngan tunang dia..kui3..
so dia kata, couple ni kalau untuk awak..apa tujuan dia??
perjalanan awak masih jauh lagi..kalau awak mmg nak kawen ngan dia lainlah..~

so make sure u know what's your goal people..
and dalam Islam kita ada konsep zuhud..
maksudnya bersederhana..
bersederhanalah dalam menyayangi someone..

'Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesua tu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui.' - Surah Al-Baqarah ayat 216'

p/s: kawan aku bercinta tak pegang2, boleh je bertahan sampai bertahun2..~~huhu

blog.blogwalking.

assalamualaikum..

hye dear blogger, and blogwalker yang berjalan2 di blogku yang dah macam sawang labah2 kot..

sekarang ni having a blog is like a new-in-thing..

but who cares..i made my blog since i have finished my SPM *riaklah??padahal update ciput je.

sorry peeps for not updating something yg informative or menarik..

i have my own world i have to dealt with..

yeah, this is actually a personal blog yang not too personal..

i've been writing some random stuff here and there..

my private life?

yeah..here and there...hihi..

too much that i wanna said but i just couldnt..

despite blog slalu jadi tempat maki hamun, caci maki, burukkan orang..

im telling my story..

how i felt and about me..

kalau aku ada sentuh beberapa manusia dalam hidup aku,

its either you are my dearest bestfriend, your story really do need to be shared to people for inspiring others or you are awesome!

kalau aku marah orang, sedih*like previous entry..i wont said your name nor said something stupid like insulting them..i dont want people to do the same to me..

just what i felt..

aku takkan tulis blog and delete entry..

this is aint an FB status people..

in blogging world, what you have written, orang akan baca..

and people tend not to forget what they had read.

so think wisely before clicking the publish button.

december..

back to december..-taylor swift..
november dah berlalu..
i always have an awesome november..
my november..always and forever..
this november..i might not forget it..
i gain something and lost something..
i laugh and i cry..
cherished the moment..and think back of the memory left..
kita takkan mampu untuk mengambil peluang yang baru andai kedua belah tangan kita digenggam..belajarlah untuk melepaskan..hanya dengan itu kita berjaya menggenggam sesuatu yang baru
the risk that i took..i hope its the best..
i hope you wont make me regret on the things that i sacrifice.


p/s: sekalipun matahari hilang ditutup awan..cahayanya masih menerangi bumi..~
nak membenci seseorang bukan mudah dan bukan aku..lagi2 membenci orang yang kita sayang..~

~~

satu masa dulu..

seseorang pernah cakap ayat ni dekat aku..

aku tak kisah kalau orang yang aku sayang bahagia dengan someone yang baik, yang betul2 deserve dia..macam kau pon takpe..huhu (dia, 2009/2010)

p/s: waktu ni kita tengah melepak kat bilik kau sambil makan cucur udang..bergosip pasal orang rumah bawah, cullen n etc..mungkin dah lupa kot..papelah..kenangan aku bukan macam mimpi..bangun tdo terus lupa..~