Bidadari

Assalamualaikum.

30 & 31hb ogos yang lepas, Alhamdulillah, Allah izinkan aku untuk mengikuti The Bidadari Convention anjuran iMuslim.

To be there with the crowd and to gain knowledge from amazing speakers, what I can say is just BLESSED.

Tak pernah ada pengalaman join majlis ilmu macam ini.

Dulu, tak pernah mencari ilmu macamni,

Berlagak, Ujub, Riak. Astaghfirullah.

Somehow lepas dah habis study and InsyaAllah will be graduating soon,

masa banyak sangat dan terdetik hati untuk cari ilmu.

Bila dah niat entah macamana Allah detikkan pada hati untuk tanya kawan sekolah dulu, Anis

And suddenly tahu pasal Twins of Faith,

Dapat tahu pulak pasal The Bidadari Convention ni lagi beberapa hari nak raya and tarikh macam dah dekat sangat,

ingat tiket dah habis tapi lepastu Anis guide beli dekat siapa semua,

Memula book tiket sorang2, memang tak fikir nak ajak teman pon maybe sebab rasa dah last minute takut tak ada yang nak join.

Punyalah berani nak pergi PICC sesorang padahal event pukul 10 pagi- 10malam.

Tup3, ajak girlfriends pegi twins of faith, pastu cerita sekali pasal The Bidadari and Alhamdulillah Yin and Teha nak pergi sama.

Dekat sana, for the first time, I just can't describe it how I feel there,

The crowd, the speakers, the event, everything, just everything, MasyaAllah!

I never been to a very smooth event as this event,

I don't have any single complaint on it,

I learn a lot. Like seriously a lot. Not only through the lectures but also through the surrounding.

Everyone dekat situ was really nice,

Tak henti mulut dari keluar perkataan, masyaAllah, subhanallah, Alhamdulillah.

To see them covering their aurah completely make me segan untuk pakai something indecent.

Sebab ramai sangat orang, we took the ablution at toilet sink, and mostly lepas habis wuduk akan lap air sekeliling sink tu bagi kering,

Then what I love the most adalah, how I could see everyone's performing their solat just everywhere and anywhere, not necessarily in the musolla.

And how we all performed our solat with the clothing we are wearing outside of the solat.

I remembered back then, orang kita ada stigma yang "you dont have your telekung, you can't perform your solah."

Alhamdulillah, nowadays people are aware, kalau pakaian yang kita pakai untuk keluar rumah tak cukup lengkap untuk kita tunaikan solat, it means we are not covering our aurah right.

I am not righteous pon, I made a lot of mistakes,

I'm learning now, to be better, to stay away from Allah's hatred, to forgive my own mistakes, to ask forgiveness from Him.

Baby steps, This Bidadari Convention cuma batu loncatan for me to change and be better,

Maybe dalam berubah ni pon, ada benda yang macam hipokrit, but somehow we have to be hypocrite till we make it.

Dalam terpaksa tu datang ikhlas.

And somehow, day by day, rasa tenang menyelinap dalam hati,

Bahagia datang dalam duka yang panjang,

Dugaan datang bertimpa-timpa, tapi Allah hadirkan gembira.

Sebab janji dia, Dia ada buat mereka yang sabar, 

Dan sesiapa yang mencari Dia, akan dipertemukan dengan apa yang di cari.
I feel so much better now.
InsyaAllah. Doakan aku istiqamah dalam jalanNya.