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raya senyum sampai ke langit~

assalamualaikum..!
ada yang terasa ke dengan tajuk entry ni?wakaka..
alhamdulillah raya tahun ni macam-macam perasaan ada..
macam2 dah tempuh waktu ramadhan..
bila syawal menjelma ada satu perasaan sedih dan sayu dalam diri..
mungkin ni ramadhan terakhir aku..sempat ke mintak maaf dengan semua orang?hmm..
raya macam biasa..first raya rumah nenek kat kelana jaya..
then second raya baru balik johor..
macam-macam yang jadi raya ni..
and alhamdulillah ada cerita gembira yang bakal dikongsi..
mungkin tahun depan piranha dapat beraya dengan kehadiran orang baru..insyaAllah..
cerita lebih2 tak dapat dipaparkan..tettt..
so kongsi sikit gambar raya meh..

 raya outfit!

 children of raya! lovely

family sebelah umi.

 polaroid! credit to mr photographer, muhammad izzuddin.

 family sebelah abah.; piranha

 lovely cousins.

buka buku baru~

assalamualaikum..
ramadhan dah pon melabuhkan tirai..
dan kita telah pon berganjak ke bulan syawal.
hari kemenangan..
kemenangan apa? tanyalah diri sendiri.. apa yang telah kita perjuangkan dalam diri kita.
bagi aku..
untuk tempoh setahun (dari ramadhan tahun lepas ke tahun ini), banyak perubahan yang terjadi..
flippin' through memories..I've been through a lot..
baca entry aku dari bulan ke bulan..
I told myself, I've done my best, I've struggled my best to protect what I still have at that moment..
friendship, everything..hmm..~
dari satu entry ke satu entry..it such a long and sad stories..
so it is such an eye opener.  
advantage of blog: you get to know yourself and changes that occur in your life. 
changes occur here and there..
the way I dressed up, the way I behave, the way I think..
everything's changing.
my view on people are changing.
I learnt people are not what we used to think.*or maybe how I used to think.
I told myself,
"orang akan terus bercakap tentang aku, judge aku tanpa henti..tapi mereka takkan pernah tahu apa yang ada dalam hati ni..kalau boleh nampak, mungkin hati aku dah tak ada rupa hati dah..dah luka berdarah, koyak-rabak kot" *hyperbola gila-pedulik apa aku..korang bukan kisah pon.tahu nak condemn je.

so, I decide, biarlah syawal ni permulaan untuk aku kisah tentang hati dan perasaan aku je.
selfish? pentingkan diri sendiri?
korang tak ke?macam korang jaga sangatlah hati aku ni..
biarlah kali ni, aku nak happy sorang2, eh, dengan mereka yang akan sayang aku jugak..
aku dah penat dengan orang yang bermuka-muka dengan aku.
tak suka cakap je depan-depan, senang sikit aku nak jaga hati aku supaya aku boleh ignore je semua perbuatan korang and boleh aku pujuk hati aku
" orang kalau dah tak suka, buat benda baik yang ikhlas pon tak akan suka jugak..semua nak persepsi negative, lantak kau lah..sila layan diri sendiri"
yes, aku jenis macam ni..once aku tahu anda benci gila kat aku, aku akan ignore.
you are not worth it remembering.
raya dengan family, dengan my lovely cousins yasmin and faten made me feel lovable.
siapa tak suka dikelilingi orang yang terima kita dari kecil sampai besar,
yang tahan perangai kita and bagi nasihat seikhlas mungkin,
yang sound direct kalau kita ada buat salah,
and yang penting, takkan tinggal kan kita saat kita jatuh dan terlalu lemah untuk bangkit semula.
mereka ada.mereka ada,mereka ada.mereka ada.
nilah yang aku bagitahu tiap kali perasaan sedih bila fikir hal dulu menguasai diri..masih ada yang sayangkan aku..~
dan ini yang buat aku kuat..

p/s: izinkan aku untuk mementingkan diri sendiri..selama hidup ni, cukuplah aku jaga hati dan perasaan orang lain..izinkan aku untuk rasa gembira dan bahagia..aku tak pernah boleh membenci seseorang..dan malas rasanya nak benci orang..so, haters gonna hate. if u hate me, then go on with all your drama..I won't bother..~maaf zahir dan batin.

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 You go talk to your friends talk

 And my friends talk to me 

But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Like ever... 

 I'm really gonna miss you picking fights

And me, falling for a screaming that I'm right 

And you, will hide away and find your piece of mind with some indie record that's much cooler than mine 

(we are never ever getting back together- taylor swift)

let it out!

assalamualaikum..

iftar~

assalamualaikum..

despite of everything that happen in this Ramadhan..

Allah still give me LOVE from the one that love me..

family and girlfriend..

yesterday, we had our first iftar together..

yup, selepas 6 tahun berkawan..dari zaman sekolah ke matrix/A level/ diploma ke degree..

this is our first iftar..AND our first night outing..^__^

kami bukan jenis yang suka keluar malam..

we have curfew..tak boleh balik lewat malam..hihi

yeah, we live in the city..we are the so called up-town-girl but we have curfew and we just happy with that..

itu yang buatkan kami protected kan?

so, back to the iftar thing..

we had our iftar at rebus-rebus..makan steamboat!!

dia berdekatan dengan JPJ padang jawa..

for me, not bad lah..but the tomyam tak pedas *our definition of pedas is kinda extreme..huhu

dekat restaurant  tu ada surau yang bersih dan kemas..so xdelah rushing ke apa..

acara siapa memasak paling hebat! kih3

ketam and daging..yummie!

makan tak perlu control..siapa control lapar! hoho..

after dinner about 930 kitorang pegi dataran Shah Alam for the photoshoot!

we love camera..ofcourse..^__^

.masjid negeri.

first attemp of self-timer..yin too b'cahaya!

 last attemp! yeay!

bergosip cum posing 

this dataran is our childhood memories..

kitorang pernah berguling2 kat dataran macam cerita bollywood..hoho =.=

sweeter than a candy 

love the teasing 

us, together hand in hand embracing the future..

the journey

 without them, I can't stand short tall with a smile on my face.

because of them, I keep myself strong..

coz, I know, if I cry, they'll cry too..

dear girlfriends, I love you..

thank you for staying in my life and go through every moment together with me.

Thank You Allah for giving them as my present and sugar of my life

some scars wounded a bit deeper than usual~

most touching line from bestfren : when i die, don't come near to my body coz my hand won't be able to wipe your tears anymore :'(

third year~

assalamualaikum..
my one month of holidays had just finished *minus the hospital attachment for 3 weeks, so it's 2 weeks of holidays..
so get back to being nerdy pharmacist student..
for this semester I'll be having 9 subjects:
DESIGNING DOSAGE FORM II
PHARMACOLOGY OF ENDOCRINE SYSTEM
PHARMACOLOGY OF CANCER AND OTHER BODY SYSTEM
PHARMACOLOGY OF GASTROINTESTINAL TRACT
PHARMACOGNOSY
PHARMACEUTICAL ANALYSIS
PHARMACY PRACTICE IV
CLINICAL PHARMACOKINETICS
REPORT WRITING

so, as we can see all of the subjects are core subject with the add in of clinical thingy, it make it more tougher.
my timetable is out, and I will have classes from 8am to 6 pm everyday..and for friday it will be till 0830 pm..
each day I will have an hour gap from 1-2pm..
I think I will lose weight again just like in my second semester..
be prepared dayah..=.=
it gonna be a really tough semester..
and I hope everything else will be fine.
may Allah ease my path..
I'll do this lillahi ta'ala..
not for others, but for Allah.
Allah's the only one who know what I've been through and He knows what is the best for me..
and I know in each step that I made, He will be there protecting me..

Dear Allah,
you know how I feel,
how I wish I could be,
how I wish others to understand me..
but you keep reminding me, only You who knows who I am,
what I've been keeping inside,
my tears and sorrows,
and you know how strong I could be..
and I know that you never left my side forever..~