wordless wednesday~

kita selalu inginkan jodoh yang terbaik..

inginkan jodoh sehebat Rasulullah, sedangkan diri tak sehebat Khadijah..

inginkan jodoh sehebat Ali sedangkan diri tak sehebat Fatimah..

kadang-kala Allah tak hadirkan yang sempurna untuk kita..

tapi Allah bagi kita sama-sama berubah kejalanNya..

insyaaAllah =)

p/s: i love you~

Sometimes...

when people decide to leave you for good, you have to let them.

No matter how much you don't want them to, there are some things that are far beyond our control.

And even if you have the strength to fight for them,

you have to accept the cold, harsh truth

''That the people you can't live without, can live without YOU."

assalamualaikum..

entah kenapa petang ni ramai pulak yang update status kat fb macam ni..

and for several reason everything seems to be related..

apa musim ke semua orang nak sedih?

mungkin perubahan cuaca mengganggu emosi ramai orang..

serius, ramai gila mood swing semenjak dua menjak ni..

sampai aku pulak rasa rimas and in the end aku yang swing sama..

penat, letih, geram, sedih..

macam-macam yang aku rasa..

but whatever..~ serius aku dah malas nak fikir..

aku tahu aku takkan mampu puaskan hati semua orang..

lagi-lagi hati orang yang dah tanam perasaan benci pada aku..

yes, trust is something you gain..

and yes, it is like paper..

once crumple, it could never get back to normal..

tapi ingat, kertas kalau kita iron/seterika pon boleh jadi macam sebelum tu..

pokok kalau kita paku memang akan tinggal kesan kalau kita cabut..

tapi cuba potong, kesan paku tu hilang jugak, dan akhirnya sesuatu yang baru dan cantik boleh terhasil daripada pokok tu..

dan sesuatu yang baru dan cantik tu takkan terhasil kalau kita tak buang bahagian kesan paku tu kan?

ya, mungkin aku tak faham, aku tak rasa..

tapi aku juga manusia biasa..

kalau seseorang tu sumber kebahagiaan kita, kegembiraan kita..

tapi boleh DIA bahagia dengan kita?

hidup kadang-kadang tak boleh pentingkan diri sendiri..

kadang-kadang lepaskan adalah yang terbaik..

dan jangan kata kita dah mengalah, kalau kita masih mengejar sesuatu yang tak pasti dan masih mencuba untuk mendapatkan apa yang kita inginkan..~

aku hanya insan biasa yang tak lari dari buat kesilapan even pada teman-teman dan orang yang aku sayang..

oleh itu, dengan seikhlas hati..

ampunkan semua dosa yang pernah aku buat pada korang..

salah dengan Allah, aku boleh bertaubat..salah dengan manusia hanya korang yang mampu ampunkan..

p/s: doakan perjalanan aku naik bukit broga..amin..~

things I remember about you~

assalamualaikum..

your favourite colour is purple.

your favourite drink is watermelon juice.

your favourite food is nasi kerabu.

your favourite subject is biology.

your favourite fruit is durian.

you love cempedak goreng.

basically you love fruits

you like nips.

you like coffee and nescafe.

you wear men's watch.

you love sneakers than women shoes.

you never really share your story unless a person ask you and know how to ask you.

you said that you are not that lady-like but deep down I know you are.

you love burger specifically burger daging.

we love playground.

we love gossips.

we love jalan-jalan release tension.

we love lepak dekat cafe lepas exam.

we love ulu bendul.

we love pasar malam hari jumaat.

we love makan ramai-ramai satu aras.

we love panjat bukit belakang kmns.

we love cafe A.

we love A4 Aras 4

we love our togetherness..~

this is basically what I remember..

specifically it wont be enough to describe it all in one night.

for this day..16 may..

I just wish for one thing..

only this day, can we just put aside everything that happen.

ONLY FOR TODAY.

basically it is your birthday and our friendship anniversary day.

Happy Birthday Nurul Fadzillahuda Mohtar.

May Allah bless you =)

p/s: sorry if this entry disturbing you..for what ever feelings that you have for me. I only have one feeling for you and it never change and I know you know what is it..kan?
I try hard not to ruin your birthday and I'm sorry if I did..
just so you know, I've promised to let you go so you can live better~

my real bestfriend~

assalamualaikum..

she is cute

she is adorable

she is part of me

our friendship starts 8 years ago.

she is just soo small and tiny.

she is a good girls

she is so kind.

never give a problem for me..

instead, she is there for me each time i need someone.

a year later, she got sick and get so skinny after her first birth.

I am so worried when she start to vomit blood..

we sent her to clinic and she had been poisoned.

after 3 days in ward, she is getting better..

afterwards she is healthy.

her body is soo chubby and she always be adorable.

what I love the most about her?

she always there for me.

she's been there when I walk through my teenage years.

she's there when I cried.

She's there through my happiness and sorrow..

she hear me when I want someone to talk to.

She hugs me when I am very weak.

She pat my arm and 'said' to me to be strong.

She kissed me when I ignore her.

She massage my stomach when I have my period pain.

She always accompanied me when I have to do my works late at night

She ALWAYS sit on my lap when I do my works

and EVEN NOW,

she sleeps on my lap and hold my right hand as if giving me courage and strength to keep me strong!

She is my buddy, my bestfriend, my pet..

SHE IS MY SHANINI

diam bukan bererti tiada perasaan

Berkatalah sesuka hatimu untuk menghina kehormatanku. Maka diamku dari orang yang menghina adalah suatu jawapan . Bukanlah ertinya aku tidak memiliki jawapan, tetapi tidak pantas bagi seekor singa melayani kerenah anjing-anjing.

-Imam Syafie

wordless wednesday~

In my world, there are people that I just couldn't get angry with..

cause, being angry at them will only makes me sad.

sorry for not always been there for you..

but you should know that I love you and that's what important the most.

And it's okay if you have to go away

Oh just remember the telephone works both ways

And if I never ever hear them ring

If nothing else I'll think the bells inside

Have finally found you someone else and that's okay

Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of

and others just read of and if you could see me now

well then I'm almost finally out of.

I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede

well I'm almost finally, finally, out of words.

(you and I both-jason mraz)

writer block

assalamualaikum..
I have soooo many things in my mind.
sooo many BUT i have a writer block yang bermaksud,
seorang penulis akan ada masalah untuk menulis apa yang dia fikirkan.
I hate this sooooo much because writing is my therapy.
It express what I couldn't said it out loud.
and unable to express my feelings is sooooo stressful for me..
ngeeee~~~
cuaca kat shah alam pon sojuk gilo lah kan..(keluar dah bahasa kuantan aku)
I have assignment tapi lembab betullah aku buat kerja since tak jumpa information needed..
I really hate this.
so for this entry I just randomly said whatever I thought on..
dah bercampur kot isi kepala aku ni..wuwuwu


p/s: sometimes I just tired being soo strong. Sometimes I just need to breakdown and cry all I wanted until everyone get annoyed..hoho!