Ramadhan.

Assalamualaikum..
So, it's my first Ramadhan without my family for the whole month.
Umi tak bagi balik, lagipon gaji belum dapat lagi. InsyaAllah another 2 weeks.
I'll be home on the night of Syawal itself.
It's okay, I'm adapting.
Living here wasn't that bad.
The environment, this place wasn't that bad.
It is almost like Pekan Kluang but bigger.
Kat sini ada everything too except for Sephora..haha
Ada giant, ada lots of bakeries *and as a bread-lover, I'm super loving it
For me, anywhere you live pon dekat dengan anywhere.
My house to hospital take around 10-15minutes drive,
for local, it was a bit far actually,
but for me yang biasa drive 30-40min from home to workplace,
it was really close.
Dah duduk sendiri ni, I learnt to go to Pasar by myself,
cook for myself,
buying groceries, and managing my accounts.
I used to hate Pasar, but now I went to Pasar every week.
I never know what type of fishes, I just know what it could be cook for,
Ikan kat sini tak sama dengan ikan kat semenanjung,
mostly ikan laut dalam,
but cheaper.
I can get Ikan Selar Kuning RM8/kg..
but the thing that I missed the most was tomato, cherry tomato, celery (tade langsung) and salads.
That is my comfort food but I can't find it here.
I learnt to speak their languages, the slang and mingle around.
Alhamdulillah, my colleagues are okay and some are very friendly.
Well, not all will love us but atleast I met a lot of new friends.
As this place is really small town,
the entertainment aren't that much,
the seniors brought us to watch movies every friday night after works, *Told ya, it wasn't bad in here*,
I've went to few Pulau few weeks after I start working and ofcourse with the seniors.
Thus, afterall, I'm enjoying my new life here.
Alhamdulillah.

A month away

Assalamualaikum.
A post from far away land.
I'm doing fine. Alhamdulillah.
Bak kata abah, "If you are normal people, you'll be okay anywhere you go"
True. I love to repeat this to myself and everyone around me, people will always adapt to changes.
The first day without Umi and Abah, ofcourse I cried a lot.
I remembered how my parents followed me here for the first week, to find me a house, and helping me settle down.
I remembered the last day before both my parents went back to Shah Alam.
How my dad fell quite and suddenly randomly said, "Esok Kak nurul dah sorang-sorang kat sini"
Yeah, abah was the one who was so worried when I told them I will have to go here.
Abah was the one insisted to follow me for the first week. Which I'm glad they followed me here and helped me settle down.
Umi cried too at the airport and ofcourse I cried even before going to the airport.
It just, I can't help but to cry. I'm so far away from home.
It feels like I'm living in the overseas.
But the next morning, it feels like a normal day.
The first few days was the hardest.
You know when you are new to that place, and trying to fit in is so hard.
But somehow, you'll get through it and life become Alhamdulillah better.
What I like the most here is I can wake up early as the sun rises a bit earlier than west Malaysia,
and thus, I can perform Dhuha at home before going to work.
I've been practicing Dhuha for almost a year now, and the result is just wonderful.
It feels like your day is just blessed. I can't explained it but Dhuha is a miracle.
It's not that easy to live here all by myself when I live my whole life with my family,
but being here now, what I learned the most is to try living my life attaching myself only to him.
Only hope for Allah, depend on Allah, asked Allah to protect me and not to human-beings.
Alhamdulillah, with this thought in my mind, heart and soul, all my affair was taken care of. Alhamdulillah.
I just can't stop saying syukur.
And for now, Alhamdulillah. I'm happy.
Alhamdulillah.

WORKING

Assalamualaikum..
And finally I'll start working insyaAllah next week.
I'm leaving Shah Alam and not just Shah Alam.
I'm just leaving, to a place that is so foreign to me.
I've been there once.
To visit not to stay.
Now I'm gonna be there for a year or two or probably more.
I don't hate it.
But the fact is, I can't believe I'm leaving soon.

'if you leave, I will bring myself to Brunei'
Months afterwards,
'So when are you leaving to Brunei?'
Almost a year afterwards,
'I'm leaving. Not to Brunei but somewhere far'

I'm totally okay now but I guess Allah want me to completely heals there,
Where no one knows me, my past and everything else.
Like I said before,
I don't hate it.
I know Allah knows this is the best for me.
I've been waiting for this.
19 years in Shah Alam.
Shah Alam had given me her best.
I went to pre-school, primary and secondary school, make friends, fall in and out of love, hurt, betrayed, joy, experience, knowledge, happiness. Everything. All here in Shah Alam.
Shah Alam will always be my first love
The only regret is to be so far away from my family and friends. And my lovely cats.
But this is how life rolls.
You'll gain some, you'll lose some.
And afterall, human will always adapt to changes. Always.
Salam alayk.
Till then, next post will not be from Shah Alam I guess.

Oblivious

Assalamualaikum..
Rumours are spreading that the good news will arrive any when this week.
Nervous, excited.
Nervous to step into the next phase in life.
Will I deal with it?
Will I do a great job.
This is no longer a practice ground.
I'll be dealing with real people, real situation.
Excited to meet new people, new environment.
Well, that's the final step to move on.
I've been stucked here for awhile.
Excited to have my own money.
Excited for a new adventure.
Looking back, this time, last year,
If and only if I'm not that oblivious to not to see what is infront of my eyes..
Oh well, I've been through a lot.
Pat yourself at the back, hidayah.
I'm proud of myself for getting through this and now you're smiling again.
Will everything be better than okay again?

"Que sera, sera..
What will be will be..
The future not us to see"

Every Action has Reaction

by gems of jannah:
A sister sought advice after having had her heart broken, 6 months on still struggling with the same pain. -

It's common for sisters to have their hearts broken, the promise of marriage is always flung around like a handkerchief, so many unfulfilled promises and broken trusts, brothers must reflect over their actions. Whenever you are about to do something which has the possibility of hurting someone, remember that a day will come when you will have to stand before Allah and He will question you about these relentless actions of yours. Remember every action has a reaction. And a bad action tends to create a bad reaction. Sisters, don't be fooled, don't just hand your heart over to anyone. Someone who isn't willing to take the halal approach is not worth the pain, not even an ounce of it. -

May Allah make it easy for those who are suffering from heartache, and protect the hearts of the sincere believers. Ameen. 