Conversation selepas degree

Bila nak kerja?

Tunggu penempatan je ni.. Surat SPA dah dapat..

Bila nak dapat penempatan?

Bila KKM hantar surat

Kau nak pergi negeri mana?

Tak kisah pon mana-mana..Sabah Sarawak pon ok je..

Gaji berapa? Dengan cerita gaji fresh graduate pharmacist paling tinggi kat Malaysia?

Bolehlah..Alhamdulillah..

Pharmacy susahkan?

Kalau minat rasanya insyaAllah boleh je..

Bila nak kahwin?

krik krik krik..

Umi: Kawan Umi haritu ada cerita, anak dia sibuk kerja tak kahwin-kahwin.. Tu yang dia risau..

Me: owh..iye...

Umi: Anak dia lelaki

Me: Owh..ok..

Abah: Hah! Taknak ke kenenkan ngan kak nurul?

Umi: Dulu dia dah tanya dah..tapi time tu kak nurul dah ada boyfriend..so cakaplah tak available..

Abah: sekarang dah available dah..

Me: *Krik Krik Krik*

Mak Andak: Kesian anak sedara kita, semuanya kechiwa *literally semua*.. Kau Nurul, tak payah setia-setia sangat.. kawan je dua tiga empat pastu pilih satu..

Me: Amboi..

Mak Andak: Betullah! Buat apa setia-setia sangat, bukan ada apa-apa pon.. dulu teringat apa arwah Pak Cik Farouk pesan kat adik..

Me: Jap Pak Cik Farouk mana?

Mak Andak: Atuk kau lah! 

Me: Mana org tahu..sekali orang lain ke..*sbb atuk belah mak aku Fakhrudin, nama glamour Farouk*

Me: Apa atuk pesan?

Mak Andak: Eh, atuk tak pesan apa2 kat kau ke?

Me: Tak sempat..

Mak Andak: Atuk kau pesan, nanti dah masuk U, cari kawan sorang lepastu pegang kuat2..

Me: Owh..nenek pon pesan yang sama..

Nenek: Kau dah ada kawan baru tak?

Me: ermmm..tak adalah..

Nenek: Nanti cari kawan yang elok, yang boleh membimbing, kawan baik2.. kalau jumpa keluarga dia, jangan meninggi diri..

Me: Ok nek..

Acik: Nanti kau masuk hospital, kau carilah doktor sorang.. Tak pon kau kawan je dengan kawan-kawan Nabil and Abang Aqi *sebab dedua doktor*

Me: Tulah..

Syuhada: Kak Nurul nak cari doktor ke? Tak payah lah...

Me;Apasal pulak tak boleh?
Syuhada: Nak ke? Nanti busy kot..

Me: Ok pe..boleh bukak klinik sesama..kih3

Syuhada: eee, bosanlah!

Member: Siapalah yang kawen dulu kan..

Member: Tulah..siapa yang dah ada calonlah dulu..

Me: Betul..siapa ada calon dulu..cepat2!

Member: Eh, dayah takkan tak ada calon kot..

Me: Betullah! Kenapa? Tak boleh ke dayah tade calon? =.=

Some of the conversation yang semakin kerap sejak kebelakangan ni..

InsyaAllah soalan kerja semua mampu nak jawab lagi,

soalan jodoh tu..kadang-kadang sentap jugak..

Tapi Allah yang pegang rahsia yang kita semua tak tahu..

Yang penting, Dia dah rangka sesuatu yang indah, yang akan aku hargai lebih lagi bila aku dapat suatu hari nanti..

Semuanya serahkan pada Allah..

Dia lebih mengetahui..

Signposts- Lullabies by Lang Leav

What if certain people were signposts in your life? Representations of good or bad. Like an old friend you see across a crowded street, one you wave hello to, before hurrying on. The last time you saw them, things took a turn for the worse and, as sad as it may seem, they have unwittingly become an omen- a precursor of bad luck.

Or that one person whom you rarely speak with, who can always be found right where you left them. You carry their smile with you like a talisman- for whatever reason, their presence in your life will always bring the promise of better days.

Then there is the boy you can never stop thinking about. Whenever you see his name, it trips you up. Even if it's one that belongs to many others, even if he belongs to someone else. 

You know he is a symbol of your weakness, your Kryptonite. How he rushes in like wildfire and burns through everything you worked so hard to build since he last left you in ashes.

So you do the only thing you know how- you put so many miles as you can between him. As many roadblocks and traffic lights as you can gather. Then you build a bold red stop sign right on your doorstep, knowing all the stop signs in the world could never hold him- they can only ask him to stay awhile.- Lang Leav, Lullabies.

Independent Girl

Assalamualaikum..

by 17 things to expect when you date who's used to be on her own

1. Expect her to do her own thing often and without letting you know, at least at first. It’s not that you don’t matter; it’s just that she’s learned to love doing what she wants, when she wants, and without asking permission or informing anyone

2. She'll probably want to take things slowly because she's not used to all the attention. Don't think she don't like you enough, she probably likes you alot; it's just all new to her.

3. Expect her friends to be overprotective of her and to be suspicious of you at first. They’re not used to her being with someone and they’ll want to make sure you’re the kind of guy who will treat her well.

4. She’ll have a hard time letting you do things for her. Try not to take this personally. She’s just used to taking care of herself and it’ll be hard for her to live in a world where she’s got someone else looking out for her in that way.

5. Expect her to be stubborn, to always want things her way, and to fight you when she doesn’t get it. Don’t always give in to her, but do let her win sometimes.

6. She needs to be left alone often especially when you first start seeing each other and it should feel like she’s head over heels. Believe that she has more butterflies in her stomach than she knows what to do with, which is why she’ll need to compose herself.

7. Expect her to pull away from you, especially when she realizes how much she likes you. She’ll come back to you but she’ll need time to think her feelings through.

8. She’ll question you, sometimes directly, sometimes implicitly, about your feelings for her. She’ll always want to know if they are real or if she’s making things up in her head.

9. Expect her to be headstrong. She’ll tell you, “I’ve got this,” more than you’ll want to hear. But she’ll get used to your offers to help. And in time she’ll know how to let go of the tight grip she seems to have on everything.

10. She’ll be guarded, and she won’t be keen on letting you in. She’s waiting to see if you’re patient, she’s waiting to see if you’re worth it. She’s hoping that you’re worth it.

11. Expect her to be stingy with trust, to only give a little bit at a time. But every time she gives you a little, it’ll feel like a big step for her. Cherish these big steps.

12. She’ll come across as strong, maybe too strong for you at first. But don’t be intimidated, this is her outer shell. And when you get to know her, you’ll know she’s strong but soft; tough but kind.

13. Expect her to be reserved, at least about the things that matter. Until you really get to know her. And then you’ll see the untamed, raw, and always beautiful open version of her that she’ll let you fully discover.

14. She’ll be slow with her vulnerabilities, and hide many of her weaknesses. And when she shows you them, she’ll feel naked. Clothe her with your words.

15. Expect her not to need you, and not to believe in needing much of anything at all. But she’ll want you. And when she does, it’ll be the most exhilarating feeling you’ve ever experienced.

16. She’ll be scared – scared to be hurt, scared to love, and be loved. Scared that you’ll eventually hurt her or leave her and if and when that happens, she won’t know who she was before.

17. Being alone is her default, it’s her comfort zone. But expect her to fall in love with you faster than she’ll admit and in a way that isn’t loud but still powerful; it’ll be like a little bit of heaven. And it won’t matter if you love her for a while or for a lifetime; her love will change both you and her forever.

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Still am even after those 3 years and yeah, being alone is my comfort zone.

I don't really care not to go out for days or weeks,

I don't care not to talk to any of my friends everyday,

I don't really care about socializing around,

make friends with male,

I don't really care about all that.

Probably, I'm just so in love with myself.

And Him.

Incapable

She is a person incapable to accept that feeling of him,

Not because she hated him,

She's just incapable.

She never thought someone will take care of her the way he did.

The distance she created years ago, wasn't for her,

It was for him. 

Because she's incapable.

It wasn't about the wound she's holding onto.

It never was 

Because the pain never existed years ago.

She doesn't has any intention to make him hurt again,

She knew he's holding a wound too,

and she's sorry she's gonna hurt him again.

She's incapable,

and the distance shall be recreated again.

Amnesia II

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they're still living in my phone
I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah, it hurts that you've moved on
It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I'd hold you closer than I ever did before
And you'd never slip away
And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

'Cause I'm not fine at all
No, I'm really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
'Cause I'm really not fine at all

Amnesia by 5 seconds of summer