some scars wounded a bit deeper than usual~

most touching line from bestfren : when i die, don't come near to my body coz my hand won't be able to wipe your tears anymore :'(

third year~

assalamualaikum..
my one month of holidays had just finished *minus the hospital attachment for 3 weeks, so it's 2 weeks of holidays..
so get back to being nerdy pharmacist student..
for this semester I'll be having 9 subjects:
DESIGNING DOSAGE FORM II
PHARMACOLOGY OF ENDOCRINE SYSTEM
PHARMACOLOGY OF CANCER AND OTHER BODY SYSTEM
PHARMACOLOGY OF GASTROINTESTINAL TRACT
PHARMACOGNOSY
PHARMACEUTICAL ANALYSIS
PHARMACY PRACTICE IV
CLINICAL PHARMACOKINETICS
REPORT WRITING

so, as we can see all of the subjects are core subject with the add in of clinical thingy, it make it more tougher.
my timetable is out, and I will have classes from 8am to 6 pm everyday..and for friday it will be till 0830 pm..
each day I will have an hour gap from 1-2pm..
I think I will lose weight again just like in my second semester..
be prepared dayah..=.=
it gonna be a really tough semester..
and I hope everything else will be fine.
may Allah ease my path..
I'll do this lillahi ta'ala..
not for others, but for Allah.
Allah's the only one who know what I've been through and He knows what is the best for me..
and I know in each step that I made, He will be there protecting me..

Dear Allah,
you know how I feel,
how I wish I could be,
how I wish others to understand me..
but you keep reminding me, only You who knows who I am,
what I've been keeping inside,
my tears and sorrows,
and you know how strong I could be..
and I know that you never left my side forever..~

I'm holding on to this~

:')

kalau~

kalau lah boleh diputarkan masa..

kalau lah dulu aku buat macam ni..

kalau lah aku tahu apa akan jadi sekarang..

kalau lah...

" Sabda Rasulullah SAW yang bermaksud:”Mukmin yang kuat lebih disukai oleh Allah daripada mukmin yang lemah. Namun pada kedua-duanya ada kebaikan. Berjaga-jagalah terhadap perkara yang boleh mendatangkan kebaikan kepada engkau, pintalah pertolongan daripada Allah. Sekiranya engkau ditimpa sesuatu musibah, maka jangan engkau berkata:”Sekiranya (kalau) aku lakukan begini maka sudah pasti lain yang berlaku. Tetapi katakanlah:”Itu merupakan takdir Allah dan Dia melakukan apa yang dikehendaki-Nya, sesungguhnya ‘kalau’ akan membukakan pintu amalan syaitan.” Riwayat Muslim"

perkataan kalau tu buat kita tak redha dengan apa yang Allah dah berikan kepada kita..

perkataan kalau tu buat kita tak terima qada' dan qadar Allah.

perkataan kalau tu memesongkan kita daripada menerima hadiah kehidupan yang Allah dah beri pada kita.

lupa kah kita pada ayat ini?

"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. (Surah. Al Baqarah:216)"

p/s: rasa macam nak panjat broga lagi sekali and scream all I wanted..:')

strength!

even the strongest person in the world can break down to pieces..
twice.
that's what I could describe.
remember my apology last year? entry maaf ..
this thing happen again but with a different person.
yes, being called by a friend by those word, hurt me the most.
I am hurt that I cried all day long..only this time not as bad as before..
I don't want to said it again and again..
because it's already stuck in my mind.
I had seek my apology..but I am still searching for myself.
what make you called me that.
I even asked all my gfs to be truthful to me..
they know me more than anyone else and they would never lie to me.
I haven't change a bit.
maybe it just being with them, I am myself.
being with others, yeah, maybe I'm a fake, a hypocrite.
I just couldn't be me..
I've tried my best to suits everyone..
but it just, not me.
the condition, the environment itself is not me..
I'm sorry..
the only persons that I could be me are when I am with them..
only one person who always let me cry and wait for me to be okay..yeah, it's you.
only two person truly know me from the day I was born, they're my cousins.
only three person that will always there when I need them, share my sorrow and cheer me up..they're my girlfriends..
only four person who always support me and the presence are comforting and I know they just know what I've been through..they're my family..

i must be really disturbed that I bought this shoes but yet I still love this shoes!

comfy but yet it is still few inches height kot!

masuk lopak terbenam weyh..kui3..

but yet, the promoter asked me: dah biasa pakai heels ke?

me*dlm hati : nilah first heels saya..selama ni pakai wedges je..hoho